Feb 20, 2012 20:31
First thing I got knocked off my to do list was quit. A lot of people ask me why quit a high-paying job where I could automate most of my work. There's something that only those I work closely with who were in the same boat as me could understand; there's risk worth taking and there's stupid risks. No amount of pay can cover stupid risks.
Working for a high-risk client where half of management ended up being arrested and a significant amount of others on the run from the police; all of which facing charges from "threatening social stability" to "threat to national security," can be a little stressful to say the least. There are days where you clock in and walk past a person in a prison jumpsuit and clock out wondering if the police will be outside waiting. On top of things, there can be a sense of invincibility and arrogance for those who were the cause of the police investigation, but avoided all charges because they had people take the fall.
Needless to say, there's nothing worth the time and effort being there. I don't know how many times I had to walk by the spouses of each of the accused, waiting outside the doors hoping to hear a single word about their loves one being held in isolation. I want to go home every night to my future wife. I didn't do anything illegal and refused to every step of the way.
Life is kind of like a very extensive game of chess, you spend the entire time positioning and moving your pieces to get ready for victory. I just had to wait for the right time to make my move. Once I had all of the documents and the finances I needed, I could finally quit.
I had my resignation letter ready since the day after the police raid. I walked right past heaps of illegal items (high-strength signal jammers, military-grade night vision scopes, and electronic tapping devices) and handed HR my resignation letter at 9am. By the end of the work day I was gone and out of the office with all my keys and access revoked. I felt free and could breath.
For the first time in six months, I could go to sleep at night without worrying about the police kicking in my door. Living in a police state, even if you didn't do anything wrong, you can still vanish. But for once, all my documents showed that I left and am cleared of anything. They are dated, stamped, and sealed. I can hold them up with my American passport declaring if there was any future illegal activities by that company, it doesn't involve me and there are records of me resisting to do every single illegal request when I was employed.
I want to be free. I want to have a good life. I want to have a family and all that jazz. I want all the same things most people want.
Shortly after all of that played out, I was on the soonest train up north to marry my girlfriend. Needless to say, I am now married with my beautiful longtime girlfriend. I know I am not the easiest person to get along with or understand, but when you find somebody who's willing to embrace that and not try to change all the quirks that make you who you are, it's a once in a lifetime gift. I am not letting this one get away. I may not have a lot of money, but I did the most romantic thing I could think of. We got married on Valentine's Day.
I may be without a job, but I'm not stressing out. I have unique skill sets and can find something quick once I start looking for work again. Like I said, life to me is like a chess game. Once all of the pieces are in place, it is time to start making your moves.