thinspiration needed
I haven't posted in a really long time. Mainly because I had gotten down to a nice healthy weight but I've started to put some back on. I know it's still an accomplishment coming down from 200 but there are so many moments when I still feel fat. That happens a lot when dicks on the internet actually call you Fat in your YouTube channel. I can get passed those anonymous d-bags who wouldn't stand a chance with a girl in the first place but the words still hurt. Since I've gotten 90% cured of my depression/anxiety, imo, I don't feel as bad about my weight as often as I was.
People always want to know how I did it. That's not a quick answer. I did A LOT of things to get to this point. I used to work out 5 days a week when I was unemployed but since adding jobs, I've cut back to only 2 days a week at the gym and on my feet a lot working retail. Mainly the first thing was giving up meat and all fast food. Going through a hellish detox of anti-depressants which I believe added some weight when the doctor said it was supposed to help with weight. I have used phentermine in the past and that stuff works! Then I had my gall bladder out further restricting what I can eat. Now I'm on Isagenix but I'm not following it strictly because it is expensive. I more or less use it as a maintenance program so that I get all the nutritional values I need.
That being said, I'm still annoyed that I'm over 130 when I just want to be 118-120. The only way avoiding food works for me is if I'm not around and insanely busy with something else, like when I'm at a convention. But home & any of my jobs, forget it.
If I hadn't ever lost the weight, I would never have started sewing and having a very addictive/consuming costuming hobby. A few shitheads might call me fat when I wear my spandex but more say that I look good. I do wear enough bodyshaper undergarments to help but so does everyone unless they can get away bare midriffs.
So not to toot my own horn but here are my before & after pictures and then some "thinspiration."
Below is a picture of one of my online friends who has the best abs I've ever seen. She's beautiful and it's not good to be jealous but if I could swap bods with her, I would. Her name is Amaya:
People always want to know how I did it. That's not a quick answer. I did A LOT of things to get to this point. I used to work out 5 days a week when I was unemployed but since adding jobs, I've cut back to only 2 days a week at the gym and on my feet a lot working retail. Mainly the first thing was giving up meat and all fast food. Going through a hellish detox of anti-depressants which I believe added some weight when the doctor said it was supposed to help with weight. I have used phentermine in the past and that stuff works! Then I had my gall bladder out further restricting what I can eat. Now I'm on Isagenix but I'm not following it strictly because it is expensive. I more or less use it as a maintenance program so that I get all the nutritional values I need.
That being said, I'm still annoyed that I'm over 130 when I just want to be 118-120. The only way avoiding food works for me is if I'm not around and insanely busy with something else, like when I'm at a convention. But home & any of my jobs, forget it.
If I hadn't ever lost the weight, I would never have started sewing and having a very addictive/consuming costuming hobby. A few shitheads might call me fat when I wear my spandex but more say that I look good. I do wear enough bodyshaper undergarments to help but so does everyone unless they can get away bare midriffs.
So not to toot my own horn but here are my before & after pictures and then some "thinspiration."
Below is a picture of one of my online friends who has the best abs I've ever seen. She's beautiful and it's not good to be jealous but if I could swap bods with her, I would. Her name is Amaya: