let's watch frasier. at least then, we can pretend like we're learning something.
should i update more? probably not.
i haven't been feeling well. i'm been pretty unhappy the past few days. i've been irritated and basically angry about a conversation from a couple weeks ago. like i'm supposed to be held at a higher standard than everyone else.
i get sick and tired of people. i feel that most people don't like me because of who i am, but because of what i do for them. everyone is my friend when i'm doing things for them, when i'm entertaining them, when i'm picking them up and driving to them and whatnot, but as soon as that all changes, well then it's not good anymore. it's 'why don't do every pick me up? why don't you do this for me? or this for me.' and i'm supposed to be the aggressive one, the strong one. well, ya know, i don't like making decisions for other people. it's how it is. how it will always be. there should be no roles. no strong carrying the weak. and i can't do things on the weekdays. monday through friday, i am home by ten. i can't be going out and doing things on those nights. so yes, sometimes i sit around and am lame. i never tried to hide it. hell, i advertise how fucking lame i am.
maybe i'm just making a big deal out of nothing. maybe i'm just letting things fester until they bother me. or maybe it's just because i'm in a bad mood. but one thing's for sure. no more trying to make people happy. i'm not going out of my way for anyone. ever. fuck that.
i haven't been feeling well. i'm been pretty unhappy the past few days. i've been irritated and basically angry about a conversation from a couple weeks ago. like i'm supposed to be held at a higher standard than everyone else.
i get sick and tired of people. i feel that most people don't like me because of who i am, but because of what i do for them. everyone is my friend when i'm doing things for them, when i'm entertaining them, when i'm picking them up and driving to them and whatnot, but as soon as that all changes, well then it's not good anymore. it's 'why don't do every pick me up? why don't you do this for me? or this for me.' and i'm supposed to be the aggressive one, the strong one. well, ya know, i don't like making decisions for other people. it's how it is. how it will always be. there should be no roles. no strong carrying the weak. and i can't do things on the weekdays. monday through friday, i am home by ten. i can't be going out and doing things on those nights. so yes, sometimes i sit around and am lame. i never tried to hide it. hell, i advertise how fucking lame i am.
maybe i'm just making a big deal out of nothing. maybe i'm just letting things fester until they bother me. or maybe it's just because i'm in a bad mood. but one thing's for sure. no more trying to make people happy. i'm not going out of my way for anyone. ever. fuck that.