Random non-sense musing
Heh.... life is such an unusual thing. It's so much different for each person... But I suppose a person makes what their life is? Every day choices are what brings us to the present... even the smallest can change so much in our futures... and even the futures of others. What were teh choices that changed my life so much? How would things end up had I not made the choices I did? Something had to cause me to be the way I am... Something had to evoke this...problem... But... I can't even remember exactly where it began. Perhaps the answer to fixing my problem lies in the choice made that created it. If I knew what it was, I could perhaps figure out...
It's obvious I've had alot more time to things about things. My other half hasn't taken over as much anymore. I suppose that's a good sign. Although, he still manages to make himself known at the worst possible moments...
...I've also been reading alot of books on the 'Alchemy' they have in this world. Perhaps therein lies the solution to my problem? Who knows. One can only hope... It's so hard to adjust to a place so different than your own... The constant feeling of not belonging... But perhaps I've honestly felt that before I came to this world... Haha. My mind is such a chaotic labyrnth. Hell, I'm not even sure what goest hrough my own mind half of the time. Which is, admittedly, pretty pathetic. To not understand one's self is such a discomforting feeling...
It's obvious I've had alot more time to things about things. My other half hasn't taken over as much anymore. I suppose that's a good sign. Although, he still manages to make himself known at the worst possible moments...
...I've also been reading alot of books on the 'Alchemy' they have in this world. Perhaps therein lies the solution to my problem? Who knows. One can only hope... It's so hard to adjust to a place so different than your own... The constant feeling of not belonging... But perhaps I've honestly felt that before I came to this world... Haha. My mind is such a chaotic labyrnth. Hell, I'm not even sure what goest hrough my own mind half of the time. Which is, admittedly, pretty pathetic. To not understand one's self is such a discomforting feeling...