May 13, 2016 19:41
It's been a while since I've made a post, but I guess that's the reality of living a dual life. Honestly I find it amazing that for the past 7-8 years of being a NEWS fan, not a lot of people I'm friends with know that NEWS is something that I hold dear to me. I wonder what it is that stops me? Is it the idea that the Japanese culture may be something so completely different to the Western culture? or is it that my bias who loves soccer way too much and sings angelically also happens to cross-dress and does a darn good job at it too ?! AHAHAH but most of all, the people I have talked to about NEWS always asks me "do you even understand them?"
And honestly I've picked up very little Japanese but when I listen to their songs (it sounds cliche) I can feel the emotion, I feel the encouragement. J-pop has happy-go-lucky music and fight songs that I don't see in western culture music and therefore j-pop is the sort of music I need when I'm feeling down ... which can be quite often. How do I explain something of that depth? That NEWS' music isn't gibberish but it means something to me?
On top of that, the personalities of NEWS gives me joy, their interactions and relationship with each other is something that makes me blisfully envious. For a while, their silliness gives me an alternate reality in which I can relax, and feel like even though I'm somewhere else that I'm welcome.
The fangirl life is a struggle but it's a struggle that I love to go through ♡