I'm a slut remember
Good night.
Congrats to Liz and Willie on homecoming king and queen. Whee!!!
Soo I had a really really good night...fireworks were good. Bens amazing. Definately a memory of holding one of my best friends and my boyfriend at the same time...singing...dancing...dah..good times.
Then he came over and we just layed on my trampoline and talked.
Soo...
According to Josh Iwanski I'm getting a bad rep because I went streaking and I "gave Ben blowjobs already". Kinda funny. He said I went running naked through town...riiightt...really I went not even halfway down a road..and thats it. I get a bad rep for that when I know plenty of people who do so much worse stuff than I do...like 50 times worse! But I'm supposed to be a "good little christian girl." ...no comment to that one. Oh and by the way, Ben and I have only kissed. I had the drama of this fucking town. This town is full of eyes but I can't look at anyone, they've seen this face a thousand times. FUCK JOHNSBURG. Three years and counting. It's not like I have a lot of real friends here anyway. Everybody is so fucking two faced. I'm ready to get outta here.
I've got a big fat fucking bone to pick with you, my darling. In case you haven't heard...I'm sick and tired of trying.
I'm not who you want me to be. Nor am I who my parents want me to be. I'll never be good enough for him. But I am who I want to be...and that's what counts. I'll never make anybody else happy because nobodys ever satisfied. I'm my only constant friend. My future. My shadow.
Tears fill to the brim of my eyes as I slowly watch the clock tick time by...by and by...bye bye was said again...again this happens to me. Again I go unnoticed. Unnoticed he didnt notice the silent tears screaming down my cheek...but do they ever notice them? Silent tears are the unspoken words to you I'll never say.
Congrats to Liz and Willie on homecoming king and queen. Whee!!!
Soo I had a really really good night...fireworks were good. Bens amazing. Definately a memory of holding one of my best friends and my boyfriend at the same time...singing...dancing...dah..good times.
Then he came over and we just layed on my trampoline and talked.
Soo...
According to Josh Iwanski I'm getting a bad rep because I went streaking and I "gave Ben blowjobs already". Kinda funny. He said I went running naked through town...riiightt...really I went not even halfway down a road..and thats it. I get a bad rep for that when I know plenty of people who do so much worse stuff than I do...like 50 times worse! But I'm supposed to be a "good little christian girl." ...no comment to that one. Oh and by the way, Ben and I have only kissed. I had the drama of this fucking town. This town is full of eyes but I can't look at anyone, they've seen this face a thousand times. FUCK JOHNSBURG. Three years and counting. It's not like I have a lot of real friends here anyway. Everybody is so fucking two faced. I'm ready to get outta here.
I've got a big fat fucking bone to pick with you, my darling. In case you haven't heard...I'm sick and tired of trying.
I'm not who you want me to be. Nor am I who my parents want me to be. I'll never be good enough for him. But I am who I want to be...and that's what counts. I'll never make anybody else happy because nobodys ever satisfied. I'm my only constant friend. My future. My shadow.
Tears fill to the brim of my eyes as I slowly watch the clock tick time by...by and by...bye bye was said again...again this happens to me. Again I go unnoticed. Unnoticed he didnt notice the silent tears screaming down my cheek...but do they ever notice them? Silent tears are the unspoken words to you I'll never say.