blabber on me.

[edjy4]

Wednesday was good...actually lemme rephrase that...it was amazing. During school...went well...nothing bad happened. Then went to poms...did yoga...danced...remained in high spirits...then my mom picked me up and I drove us to Fox Lake to do some grocery shopping. Mmm! Drove us home...then found out that Blast was at seven...so I made some quick phone calls...went and picked up Erin..and we were off. Blast is the Christian Youth Group in Spring Grove...it rocked!!! I used to be a total church goer and then one day...I just stopped. I missed it...a lot. I mean I still believed and what not...and I still prayed and yadda yadda but like my parents like to sleep in and whelp, Sundays are a day off so they just dont drive me often...and I don't wake up often...but anyway...I missed it. I missed the atmosphere, the positive attitudes, the messages, discussions, etc. It was amazing. Seriously. The people were so nice, and Ben was there...*sigh*. Dude, it's effed up. This summer...a little into the summer I started crushing on him...and then I pushed it away because I hadn't seen him....and the feelings went away...and I had some other drama intertwined...dah...and then I saw him again...and I remembered why I had a crush on him before. As we talked more and hung out more I liked him more and more...and more..and that's where I stand right now. I like him. Anyway...back to the Youth Group...so it was amazing. The songs that were sung by these amazing people were powerful..like I could feel the power..and the passion in it all..it was awesome. I'm sorry that I'm babbling on and on about this (especially to you Atheists out there) but last night was AWESOME! I had always talked about going but never felt right going (sad to say) and finally I went last night...i wish I had started giong along time ago. anyway..dudes i cant describe how cool i felt last night. dude...dahh...you shoulda just felt it...it was wonderful. Ill stop blabbering I promise in a second. But let me tell you...I missed what I felt and what I felt last night...like cleared everything up for me. It sounds so cliche to be like, "God cleansed me" but like last night I got to just think about everything important to me...and i felt so relieved at the end of the night. I never really got to share that side of me with anybody but Kristina before...and I shared it with Ben...it was kinda cool...because a lot of people dont appreciate that type of thing like I do...dah...I'm sure you all dont care but it was a FREAKING AMAZING NIGHT.
I came home...ate dinner finally...did some homework..looked for workout tapes for the pom squad..talked to Anna and went to bed at about 12:30...woke up bright n early for picture day today. Blah. It was a good day minus the damn freshmen testing...had to carry lots of books...(screw that. those damn testers can gimme a back massage anyway) hehe. just kidding...i remember it for me. but anyway...good day...good poms...did pilates n kicklines n learned the school song...and danced...came home...talked to Ben...sean came over...plans for tonight: stop procrastinating this paper...finish it...(american lit)...take a bath and read myself off to dreamland.

this weekend:
friday-hang w/ben
saturday- meeting and erins party
sunday-slauphin spiel parade.

gimme a jingle but it looks like this weekends booked.

ttyl all.

i love you .

mwah
xoxo

---eriN