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okay okay so ive been drawing ALOT lately. and i can't help it! i love drawing!! and i also keep on thinking about alot. and listenin to alot of "sad" songs. and im also thinking about how much school is going to SUCK this year. and how much im going to get my ass kicked. lol, im about as good as dead, i guess. and i dont wanna live in winchester anymore. i mean i dony see anyone. but i barely sleep at night because im afraid. yea i'll admit it, im scared!! but you would to when ppl are after you cuz of a whole bunch of stuff. and what about him. he always plays with my head, he's always telling me he likes me and he treats me like shit. and i still like him. UGH. yea. its wicked bullshit. wicked. why cant he just tell me off? just tell me we can be friends. why cant he tell me the truth *AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH* it sucks so much. ppl complain about the keene high school system and i dont think it's that bad. i mean. it's the kids. there's always an asshole right around the corner. and i know most of them. and im friends with most of them. and if im not friends with them they wanna kick my ass. wow. im so confused. why does there have to be clicks? and why do i always find the bad ones. i went to see my mom yesterday. cuz i live with my aunt now. well i went to see her and she was all touchy and stuff i was like. stop!! god!! i dont know. im so weirded out now. and i'm keeping almost everything inside. because i have no one to talk to . and it sucks. everyones busy with their own life. you know. im saving for ONE thing. one freakin thing. my car. because that is going to take me wherever i wanna go. and im going to be psyched!!!!!!! but i have to go now. tata.