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I don't want to live right now. I can't think of one aspect of my life that is going well.
I'm in debt.
I'm sucking at the one job that I love.
I'm not even at the school that I want to be at.
And I've ruined it with the one person that's meant everything to me. My world has lost its meaning.
I don't care how ridiculous anyone thinks I'm being. Neville means everything to me. He never stopped being the one person I've loved the most. Nobody ever came close. What happened with the other guy couldn't come close to my love for him, even with a 50-mile long stick. I hardly even knew the guy. It was the fact that someone who seemed to care for me was actually physically there when I needed someone the most. I don't know why I let it happen.. but I did, and now I'm losing it all.
I don't know if you'll ever read this, Neville. But if you do, please know that you've always been my one. If you decide to be with me again, I'll get to Tallahassee as fast as I can to hold you and make sure you know that I'll never lose my focus again. If you decide that you can't do it, I will walk to Tallahassee to show you that I'll do anything that it takes to have you with me.
I can't let you go.
I'm in debt.
I'm sucking at the one job that I love.
I'm not even at the school that I want to be at.
And I've ruined it with the one person that's meant everything to me. My world has lost its meaning.
I don't care how ridiculous anyone thinks I'm being. Neville means everything to me. He never stopped being the one person I've loved the most. Nobody ever came close. What happened with the other guy couldn't come close to my love for him, even with a 50-mile long stick. I hardly even knew the guy. It was the fact that someone who seemed to care for me was actually physically there when I needed someone the most. I don't know why I let it happen.. but I did, and now I'm losing it all.
I don't know if you'll ever read this, Neville. But if you do, please know that you've always been my one. If you decide to be with me again, I'll get to Tallahassee as fast as I can to hold you and make sure you know that I'll never lose my focus again. If you decide that you can't do it, I will walk to Tallahassee to show you that I'll do anything that it takes to have you with me.
I can't let you go.