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have you ever felt like you joined something for all the right reasons only to find out that the thing you joined is more ugly than you imagined. and you are fighting everything you joined for? sometimes i feel that way. like i joined the navy to defend those i love and my country. i joined the navy to a service for my fellow americans. i joined also so i could get some benefits. yet the longer i am in the navy. the more i feel hated. the more i feel the wrath of those outside. as if i were the one who decided to wage this war against terrorism. as if it was my idea to attack iraq. ::sighs:: sometimes i wonder. and then i see our government doing exactly what i chose to defend against. i chose to defend freedom. and what does the government do but take some of it away. oh yeah great i get a pay raise. ::sighs:: do people think i like this? do they think most people in the military like this? ::sighs:: can't they see we want to protect them. just because we are part of the government doesn't mean anything. yet still people can't look past that. sometimes they don't want to. i hate uncalled for murder. i hate people being killed. but when a boat with us sailors is blown up by another country. who cares? no one. oh.. but when we set off to attack a country for doing such crimes to us "the us government is horrible" and then when some "terrorist" attacks us. the whole nation cries out "destroy them" even though we can't find them. so waht do we do? create a group of people to destroy. and the people cry "what you can't find the man responsible?" can't you see we do our best? could you find a needle in a hay stack in the dark, inside a maze with booby traps all over the place? i know not where i stand politically. all i know is i love people. i love americans. i vowed to defend them and taht is my job. dammit.. if you hate me for protecting you. then hate yourself. for i do it out of love of you. and don't think i want to attack iraq. and don't think i don't. because i have no stance that way. all i want is to make sure you live and are safe. and when they send my friends home in body bags, please don't yell at me for something out of my control. don't yell at me saying "we told you war was bad." i mean if you want to do something. change the president. stop voting for people who want war. its not our fault you want them in charge. its not our fault you gave president go at the homeland security act. do not blame us. we are here for you.