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i hate living here. i hate living period. fuck. why does it have to be like this? it wasnt supposed to! i hate this. i fucking hate everything. fuck fuck fuck fuck. i feel so fucking alone. i dont even wanna date anyone (srry travis). i feel so stupid for getting so attached. fuck. i did. i got attachted, i opened up, i got my fucking heart torn out and fucking stomped on. FUCK. i hate vegas. i wanna get as far away from it as i possibly can. i want to get kicked out of my house, i want to leave. fuck. no, do you know what i want? i want to meet the person im suppsoed to spend the rest of my life w/, and i wanna be w/them NOW. idc if im only 14, i dont want to wait. i hate waiting. i always wait, and its always for nothing. i wait, and i get rejected or thrown away. FUCK. i want one of tjose realtionships where the ppl have been together for 3 years, but they're still so fucking in love and want to spend any chance they get together. im so fucking envious of them. im going to end up alone, and better. im gonna bethat bitch that you see pounding on the strearing wheel of her car contemplating on what to destroy of the guy's that just dumped ehr. i dont wanna be that, but thats what im gonna emd up being. FUCK. i hate being alone, but i hate being w/someone just to be w/them. fuck. im gonna go sleep.