a moment of silence
(copied from my OLU journal)
I love you guys- I hope you all know that. I miss UW. I really like DFT a lot and I enjoy my time there. I am honored that Shannon asked me to be a Dreamcatcher. Actually she didn't ask- she just did it but that is cool with me. As it grows, it will become a board with a history (like UW had), a board with long term members (like UW had) and a place where I have friends I adore and trust (like UW had). It took time for UW to become the community it was and I am hoping that DFT will become that type of community, too. I don't want it to be UW. I just want it to have the things I loved about UW. Does that make sense?
However, I am sad that I have lost my connection with UW. I felt useful there. I felt like I was needed. I felt like I had a bigger place in this world than I did before I found UW. It made me feel... like I would be missed if something happened to me, like I could make a difference in someone else's life. Women need to hear that they are important, that they are jewels and deserve to be treated as jewels. I always tried to do that, to remind them that they were important and special in their own unique way.
Now I feel a little bit adrift and just ... sad. After Carrie's e-mail today, I guess it hit me that even if UW is restored, it will basically be a bare bone situation. It will need to be rebuilt by the members too, with their wedding stories, vents, proposals and their stupid attacks on each other, with their bouquets and their centerpieces, with the overweight women who feel beautiful in their wedding gowns, with the themes that made you say, "Wow" and those that made you say, "Wow" in a completely different way. It will take a long time to get there and in the meantime, we will have to weed through all those idiots who were banned before. I do hope that it is rebuilt- it just won't be the same.
It won't ever be the same so I think it is time to officially declare that the UW we knew is dead forever.
I love you guys- I hope you all know that. I miss UW. I really like DFT a lot and I enjoy my time there. I am honored that Shannon asked me to be a Dreamcatcher. Actually she didn't ask- she just did it but that is cool with me. As it grows, it will become a board with a history (like UW had), a board with long term members (like UW had) and a place where I have friends I adore and trust (like UW had). It took time for UW to become the community it was and I am hoping that DFT will become that type of community, too. I don't want it to be UW. I just want it to have the things I loved about UW. Does that make sense?
However, I am sad that I have lost my connection with UW. I felt useful there. I felt like I was needed. I felt like I had a bigger place in this world than I did before I found UW. It made me feel... like I would be missed if something happened to me, like I could make a difference in someone else's life. Women need to hear that they are important, that they are jewels and deserve to be treated as jewels. I always tried to do that, to remind them that they were important and special in their own unique way.
Now I feel a little bit adrift and just ... sad. After Carrie's e-mail today, I guess it hit me that even if UW is restored, it will basically be a bare bone situation. It will need to be rebuilt by the members too, with their wedding stories, vents, proposals and their stupid attacks on each other, with their bouquets and their centerpieces, with the overweight women who feel beautiful in their wedding gowns, with the themes that made you say, "Wow" and those that made you say, "Wow" in a completely different way. It will take a long time to get there and in the meantime, we will have to weed through all those idiots who were banned before. I do hope that it is rebuilt- it just won't be the same.
It won't ever be the same so I think it is time to officially declare that the UW we knew is dead forever.