Just sunshine and blue sky//Is this all we get for living here

[weaver_girl]

Characters: Kagerou (weaver_girl) and OPEN
Date/Time: 14 February AND 16 to 19 February 2011, all day
Location: Section Three/ Smoke's Bar/ Dojo Island/ around Edensphere
Rating: G for Kagerou, might go up to PG-13
Summary: Kagerou goes about her week, meeting people old and new that she's been sort of neglecting.

[OOC: In other words, the player owes logs

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Breakfast time- February 14th

[pompous_today]

Simon hummed quietly to himself as he made breakfast on Monday morning. He had a late shift at the clinic later, so he had time to make a proper breakfast instead of merely grabbing something quick at his house or stopping at the Bazaar for a bag of doughnuts on the way there. Still, it was simple- bacon, eggs, and toast, with a pot of tea on to boil. He made sure to make plenty, more than just for himself and Qi- he always reasoned that he could use the leftovers in other things. He was dressed in casual clothing- a sweater and cargo pants, his feet bare- not wanting to bother with his usual attire before his shift.

Simon's heart still hurt a little from all of the losses he had endured lately, but as he'd thought the other day, he no longer felt like being miserable. Even in spite of them, he knew he still had a lot to be thankful for.

Breakfast time - February 14th - House of Simon and Qi

[weaver_girl]

Kagerou balanced the paper bag with a still-warm loaf of bread in the crook of her arm and gave the front door a brisk rap. She'd promised Simon she would come by some day, and sooner was almost always better than later. You never knew in which shape or form the next inconvenience or actual crisis would arrive.

"Good morning!" she called as soon as the door was opened, managing a smile in honest delight, not just for the sake of appearances. "Um, I brought bread, and I hope this is a good time?"

[pompous_today]

Simon jumped a little when he heard the knock on the door, but he brightened when he saw who it was.

"Good morning, Kagerou. There is never a bad time," he said sincerely, stepping aside to let her in. "Come in, come in. As you can probably smell, I was just cooking breakfast; would you like to join me?"

[weaver_girl]

She reached to give him a one-armed hug, brief but warm, and shucked her shoes and coat. She was dressed for work at the Clinic, but there had been time enough for a detour.

"I'd like that very much," she said, following him to the kitchen. The house still echoed of Koi sometimes, but she was beginning to see it more as the place where Simon and Qi lived, not the place where their father no longer lived.

"You look better," she said and meant it. "Well, not that I've seen you properly in a while."

[pompous_today]

Simon went a little red at the hug, but he gave her a similar embrace in return nonetheless. He went back to the stove when they'd let go, spearing the pieces of bacon with a fork and putting them onto a waiting plate.

"I feel better," he admitted. "I still miss everyone, don't get me wrong, but... I can't bring myself to stay miserable any more. Dad wouldn't have wanted that way. Neither would Inara or Serenity. I like to think that they're back home now, and happy... and I still have people here who love me and care about me. Especially my sister. That helps a lot."

[weaver_girl]

"There have been quite a few people from your world here, too." Kagerou pulled a chair for herself and set the bread down on the table, a little unsure what she could do to help with the breakfast. Simon seemed to have it in hand, and it was his kitchen.

"It's important to think like that." Her eyebrows creased, but thoughtfully, not unhappily. "I think Koi-Dad understood that, too, that we had to make the best of things here."

She drummed her fingers on the table. "Maybe the best thing to do is to, you know, accept that this is where we are? And try to make a difference here? Well, that's what I think."

[pompous_today]

"Yes," Simon agreed, pouring the eggs into a bowl and setting out plates and utensils for the two of them, along with a bottle of milk and one of orange juice. "I've been fortunate enough to get along with all of them, too. There are still others I am hoping will show up one day... just so I can know more about them."

Setting the food on the table, Simon finally sat down himself and began to help himself to food.

"He did," Simon nodded. He then paused to consider her statement, as usual sticking a finger into his mouth to bite down on it as he considered, remembering his many conversations with Brianna on this very subject.

"I am of two minds about that," he admitted. "I know of several people who feel as though we should fight against this place, try to figure out its secrets and escape. I felt like that, too, at one point. But... I myself need to consider my loved ones. My sister especially. When I died, it nearly broke her."

given the right trigger this girl is a living weapon

[weaver_girl]

Kagerou filled her plate, albeit most of her attention was on Simon as he spoke. When she herself had died, it had been an accident, not a punishment for speaking too much or at the wrong time. However, she knew that if she were to share what she'd learned, from Axel, about the Movie Theatre, with Paladin at the Lighthouse, she would not be safe, either. Edensphere clutched its secrets tightly.

"I--I'm not sure. I've... talked to a few people about this, and they all had at least somewhat different opinions. I don't mean that I'm..." She fiddled with a piece of bacon, then stuck it in her mouth and chewed and swallowed, methodically.

"I'm happy, sometimes. I... think I'm a better person now than I was in my own world." Her gaze dipped to the tabletop. "I haven't told that to anyone before, but I do think so. The girl in my memories, she's... scared, and fragile, and doubts things a lot."

[pompous_today]

Simon looked down briefly, but then looked up and gave her a reassuring smile

[weaver_girl]

For a long moment, Kagerou focused on her food, mulling over Simon's words of encouragement. She could see uncertainty and pain in him sometimes, and the constant pull of concern for his sister, however much that was born out of love and a burden he carried more than willingly. Still, she thought, he had strength, something bright and amazing that seemed to hold him up even in the shifting circumstances of their lives here.

"I'm glad she is here with you," she said. For both your sakes. "I suppose I've said that before, but I really am.

"And I'm glad you're here, too. I mean, you know, I watch you work at the Clinic and I'm always not sure what we'd do without you." She glanced away, having said a little more than she'd meant, and remembering that Simon flustered easily at even sideways praise.

[pompous_today]

Simon blushed deeply at her words, reaching up to chew on one of his fingers again.

"I appreciate you saying that," he replied. "...Sometimes I feel so useless compared to the rest of you, to tell you the truth. I have no sort of magic or supernatural skills... all I have are my own two hands and my knowledge. I know my efforts are needed and valued regardless, but..." He trailed off. "I know we are are own harshest critics, though. I do not see myself as special... just being a doctor and a brother, the things I do best."

[weaver_girl]

"I don't think it's an either-or question, really." She smiled over her glass. "There are situations where, well, where both of us can save a life. I really don't know that it matters which of us it is at that point."

Her voice softened towards the end. It seemed odd, but maybe not inappropriate, to attach such overt value to her own efforts. She knew her work was important and her power sometimes crucial, but was it vain to acknowledge that it was the truth?

"Doctors and brothers can both be quite extraordinary, though," she finished more quietly.

[pompous_today]

Simon mulled over her words, jumping when the forgotten teapot began to whistle. He got up and went to make himself a cup, carefully pouring before sitting back down to let it steep

...that was such a ping, I could not ignore it

[weaver_girl]

Kagerou followed him with her eyes, cognisant of the shift in the conversation. Simon was entrusting her with something important and evidently painful, something she should cradle close and keep to herself. She folded her hands to keep from toying with her fork or glass, and listened.

The sudden upwelling of smothering emotion took her by surprise. She squeezed her eyes shut and inhaled sharply, holding the breath and then letting it out in a deep, slow sigh to center herself.

"I'm sorry," she said quietly. Why did her eyes suddenly prickle? What was it? "I... I know. Or, I think I used to know, maybe, how that is. What it feels like. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to..."

:(

[pompous_today]

Frowning, Simon stood up and covered one of her hands with his once more, looking at Kagerou with concern.

"It's okay," he said, his voice unconsciously slipping into the calming tone he often used when Qi was upset. "I didn't... I don't want to upset you. But since we..." He swallowed, struggling to find the right words. "I don't know how you feel about me, but I trust you. I feel like you're a part of my family. I feel like you deserve to know the truth about my past. But if it makes you feel uncomfortable... if you would rather I stop... I will. Okay?"

[weaver_girl]

"It's all right, Simon," she hastened to add, now more in control of her voice. "I just... I told you, right, about having had an older sister or brother? I think I did. So I think... there's something about you and Qi that reminds me of them. I'm not really sure what it is, but..."

She reached for her glass and took a long swallow, then set it carefully back down. "Just go on. I'm fine, and I would like to hear it."