Touring London
Today we went to the Tower of London, Westminister Abbey's gift shop, and on a tour bus. It was while I talked with Aaron today that I truly saw God. My daughter will always be a part of my life. Though I don't understand why God wanted me to choose adoption for my daughter, I need to let go of my desire to understand and completely give it to God. I need to trust it was what He wanted and not continually blame myself for all I've done wrong or could have done differently. He has put everything into place and I need to have faith in this.
Today, Eden is 9 months old. She's trying to walk; she isn't the Baby Girl I gave birth to 9 months ago. Soon, she'll be grown - that scares me - and won't be my Baby Girl anymore. I thought of Leah and all she's going through with emotions towards Kaylee. I want to talk with her and hear her voice - it'll be the first thing I do when I get home tomorrow.
Today I found a true appreciation for the architecture around London because of the angels farved in the buildings.
Today, Eden is 9 months old. She's trying to walk; she isn't the Baby Girl I gave birth to 9 months ago. Soon, she'll be grown - that scares me - and won't be my Baby Girl anymore. I thought of Leah and all she's going through with emotions towards Kaylee. I want to talk with her and hear her voice - it'll be the first thing I do when I get home tomorrow.
Today I found a true appreciation for the architecture around London because of the angels farved in the buildings.