Homesick
Since the last time I've updated, I went to Mandy's Friday the 12th to visit with them and meet her WONDERFUL MOTHER!!! I've spoken with her mom on the phone several times, but never met her. She's a wonderful lady and a great grandmother. It really touched me the way that she asked if my parents had seen Eden recently. I told her they'd seen her at Eden's birthday party in September. She then turned to Eden and started telling her how lucky she was so blessed to have 6 grandparents and she had so much extra love around her. I was definitely smiling. We had dinner at Decatur Gardens which as always, was DELICIOUS!!! I love the waffles there! Though I was starving cuz all I'd had all day was a granola and a few chips so I had a HUGE waffle, 2 pancakes, 2 eggs, and hashbrowns. All of it was delicious! Mandy let me do all my laundry there (THANK YOU MANDA!!!!) so I got all of it caught up and actually had clean things to wear! I love visiting with them. Eden was a total ham dancing all over the place! I can't dance at all but that little girl sure can! Shakes her butt like no other toddler I've seen! I wish I would have had a video camera to record that one. I gave Jeff a hard time about not going out during the week...not that I'm a partier by any means, but I sitll loved teasing him!!! I love being able to see all of them and love on my daughter. She was so cute coming over and snuggling with me.
After visiting with them, I went back to BSU that evening. On the drive back, I chatted with Aaron about things. I had written him an email the night before to get out everything I was thinking about him. I'm so head over heels in love with him. I can't believe I had to dump him to figure out how much he truly meant to me. That is one of the silliest things I've ever done. I can't do anything but think about him. It's consuming all my thoughts. Of all the people to mess up with...AARON?!?! He's always been there and I can't believe I was so stupid. I convinced myself he wasn't the right guy for me, when in reality, I was scared of how perfect he really was for me. I didn't want to get serious with him and get hurt like I have before. Aaron's not at all like Daniel, but my heart still remembers how that felt and I was scared of how much I really did feel towards Aaron. But, the more time I spent away from Aaron, the more I realized how much I missed him and how much he meant to me. No guy comes close to comparing to him. He is so amazing and no one will ever compare. He's the most beautiful guy on earth with his gorgeous eyes and a smile that lights up my face like no other. Just hearing his voice sends a grin to my face because I'm so happy to have him in my life. Every day I spend with him only makes me appreciate him more. God's blessed me with Aaron in so many ways beyond just being my boyfriend. He's my best friend and the love of my life.
So...the phone call...I sent the email on Thurs evening and Aaron wanted to sleep on it before he answered (though I hadn't asked a question so I was really confused what that was suppossed to mean). I was a wreck. Analyzed the heck out of what he meant!!! Craig was sweet enough to go walkin with me when I was freaking (but that's another blog that I've already published). Well, we were on the phone talkin and Aaron asked me back out. I said yes of course! Funny thing is, he told his mom that morning we'd broke up because he wasn't sure if I would say yes to going back out with him so before she heard from someone else, he told her that we weren't dating but were still really good friends. When he told her later on we were dating again she said she wasn't surprised one bit. I hope that's a good thing!!! I was so happy to be going back out with him. Not because of titles, but because I missed being able to tell him how I felt about him because things were so different fro us the past few weeks. I love him with all my heart and am so blessed to have him as a part of my life.
Well, as soon as I got back to the dorm and went to go to bed (I'd had problems staying awake on the drive home cuz I was so tired), Craig called me to talk. Carrah (STUPID GIRL!!!) had broke up with him AGAIN!!! So he came over and we talked about things. He stayed til 9:15 that morn and then went back to his place. We both went back to bed. I woke up at 3 in the AFTERNOON to realize I had a test scheduled for that time, so I quickly moved it to later that evening so that I could study. Took the test at 8:40 in the evening. Test wasn't suppossed to be locked out until 10 that night. But as usual, the prof screwed things up and put it at 9 pm. Sucks that there were probably 5 of us in there taken it. I got there with 20 minutes to take my test before it was going to lock my test out and not be valid. I only had 120 QUESTIONS TO ANSWER!!! Needless to say, I did awful. Reading 6 questions a minute and answering them is IMPOSSIBLE!!! After the test, I checked my email at the lab since the BSU server has been crappy lately in the dorm. Chatted with Aaron that evening :) After that, Craig came over for pizza. Course, it took 2 HOURS for the pizza to get there! But, I'm too chicken to give crap about it and ask for the pizza to be free. Apparantly, campusfood.com orders weren't coming through the fax cuz the fax was backed up. Oh well...when the pizza got there it was KICKASS cuz I was starved since I'd missed dinner cuz of my test. He stayed again cuz we chatted til early in the morn and decided to just go to sleep. Seperate blankets of course. When we woke up, it was 1 in the afternoon so we turned on the game. The Colts were awesome!!! Craig actually had the patience to explain football to me so I understand it a little bit more now. He left during half time and I spent a lot of the afternoon chattin with Aaron til he went to work.
This past week has just been plain stressing!!! I just want to go home!!!! I miss Aaron and my parents and I just want to be home NOW!!! I thought I was gonna be able to go home Thursday afternoon right after class, but now there is an extra credit opportunity (the one and only) which I really need so I have to stay until 8 our time which means Eville time, I won't get home until 11 Thurs night. I can't wait to be home :( To top it off, Tuesday evening when I went to Wally World - I had to go because people were being really inconsiderate since I had up an away message saying I was hiding cuz I was stressed, yet everyone ims me (minus Craig) asking how I am and when I saw not good they all go into their own problems! I got way too upset and had to leave - all of a sudden I couldn't see! Craig though I was just trying to be funny but I really couldn't see at all cuz my vision went really blurry. When I woke up Wednesday morning it all made sense...my eyes were crusted over and when I looked in the mirror, definitely pink!!! I went to the health center after lunch and if I wasn't already sick, I was when they weighed me! I've gained over 10 lbs!!! I don't look bigger but I obviously am and of course, my pants are getting tighter and I can't afford new ones. I don't mind what I weigh, but I do mind about having to get new pants that I can't afford. So much for a happy week...all I want is my mommy and Aaron :(
After visiting with them, I went back to BSU that evening. On the drive back, I chatted with Aaron about things. I had written him an email the night before to get out everything I was thinking about him. I'm so head over heels in love with him. I can't believe I had to dump him to figure out how much he truly meant to me. That is one of the silliest things I've ever done. I can't do anything but think about him. It's consuming all my thoughts. Of all the people to mess up with...AARON?!?! He's always been there and I can't believe I was so stupid. I convinced myself he wasn't the right guy for me, when in reality, I was scared of how perfect he really was for me. I didn't want to get serious with him and get hurt like I have before. Aaron's not at all like Daniel, but my heart still remembers how that felt and I was scared of how much I really did feel towards Aaron. But, the more time I spent away from Aaron, the more I realized how much I missed him and how much he meant to me. No guy comes close to comparing to him. He is so amazing and no one will ever compare. He's the most beautiful guy on earth with his gorgeous eyes and a smile that lights up my face like no other. Just hearing his voice sends a grin to my face because I'm so happy to have him in my life. Every day I spend with him only makes me appreciate him more. God's blessed me with Aaron in so many ways beyond just being my boyfriend. He's my best friend and the love of my life.
So...the phone call...I sent the email on Thurs evening and Aaron wanted to sleep on it before he answered (though I hadn't asked a question so I was really confused what that was suppossed to mean). I was a wreck. Analyzed the heck out of what he meant!!! Craig was sweet enough to go walkin with me when I was freaking (but that's another blog that I've already published). Well, we were on the phone talkin and Aaron asked me back out. I said yes of course! Funny thing is, he told his mom that morning we'd broke up because he wasn't sure if I would say yes to going back out with him so before she heard from someone else, he told her that we weren't dating but were still really good friends. When he told her later on we were dating again she said she wasn't surprised one bit. I hope that's a good thing!!! I was so happy to be going back out with him. Not because of titles, but because I missed being able to tell him how I felt about him because things were so different fro us the past few weeks. I love him with all my heart and am so blessed to have him as a part of my life.
Well, as soon as I got back to the dorm and went to go to bed (I'd had problems staying awake on the drive home cuz I was so tired), Craig called me to talk. Carrah (STUPID GIRL!!!) had broke up with him AGAIN!!! So he came over and we talked about things. He stayed til 9:15 that morn and then went back to his place. We both went back to bed. I woke up at 3 in the AFTERNOON to realize I had a test scheduled for that time, so I quickly moved it to later that evening so that I could study. Took the test at 8:40 in the evening. Test wasn't suppossed to be locked out until 10 that night. But as usual, the prof screwed things up and put it at 9 pm. Sucks that there were probably 5 of us in there taken it. I got there with 20 minutes to take my test before it was going to lock my test out and not be valid. I only had 120 QUESTIONS TO ANSWER!!! Needless to say, I did awful. Reading 6 questions a minute and answering them is IMPOSSIBLE!!! After the test, I checked my email at the lab since the BSU server has been crappy lately in the dorm. Chatted with Aaron that evening :) After that, Craig came over for pizza. Course, it took 2 HOURS for the pizza to get there! But, I'm too chicken to give crap about it and ask for the pizza to be free. Apparantly, campusfood.com orders weren't coming through the fax cuz the fax was backed up. Oh well...when the pizza got there it was KICKASS cuz I was starved since I'd missed dinner cuz of my test. He stayed again cuz we chatted til early in the morn and decided to just go to sleep. Seperate blankets of course. When we woke up, it was 1 in the afternoon so we turned on the game. The Colts were awesome!!! Craig actually had the patience to explain football to me so I understand it a little bit more now. He left during half time and I spent a lot of the afternoon chattin with Aaron til he went to work.
This past week has just been plain stressing!!! I just want to go home!!!! I miss Aaron and my parents and I just want to be home NOW!!! I thought I was gonna be able to go home Thursday afternoon right after class, but now there is an extra credit opportunity (the one and only) which I really need so I have to stay until 8 our time which means Eville time, I won't get home until 11 Thurs night. I can't wait to be home :( To top it off, Tuesday evening when I went to Wally World - I had to go because people were being really inconsiderate since I had up an away message saying I was hiding cuz I was stressed, yet everyone ims me (minus Craig) asking how I am and when I saw not good they all go into their own problems! I got way too upset and had to leave - all of a sudden I couldn't see! Craig though I was just trying to be funny but I really couldn't see at all cuz my vision went really blurry. When I woke up Wednesday morning it all made sense...my eyes were crusted over and when I looked in the mirror, definitely pink!!! I went to the health center after lunch and if I wasn't already sick, I was when they weighed me! I've gained over 10 lbs!!! I don't look bigger but I obviously am and of course, my pants are getting tighter and I can't afford new ones. I don't mind what I weigh, but I do mind about having to get new pants that I can't afford. So much for a happy week...all I want is my mommy and Aaron :(