i feel so stupid

[edendreams]

I may have lost my job. i won't find out for sure till monday.. i work tomorrow and then that's it. I may not be returning. I can't smile im feeling sick and full of just this sickening disgust. I just can't believe i was so careless and now i may be jobless too.

what sucks the most is I was hoping to make this job a career. and don't ask me about how things are with paul... i don't even know and i'm dreading to find out.