Aug 30, 2007 21:49
So here i am ... sitting on the edge of the pier looking out into the open sea. As clear as day, i can see a darkness just on the horizon. Its coming and there's not much i can do to stop it. Im starting to get tired. Tired with playing games, tired with drinking so i can hide from the world. As much as i will this not to happen, its gonna happen.
I can change my life if i want to ... but do i want to?
I spends hours screaming inside my head at people who complain about how their life sucks, they all wish they had more money, or they could lose weight. So you tell them to change, and their not even prepared do anything to change.
Do i want to change my life cuz other people want me to be someone else? Someone they dont have to help?
Everyone has a friend that needs help when they are feeling down. You hate helping them and wish they could get over it, but your their friend. Friends help each other out, mostly.
Im gonna change, but im gonna change for me. Everyone has someone, I have me. Do i need anything else?
Yeah ... to not feel so alone.