Nov 05, 2006 21:44
The following text is what was written on Saturday night, 4th November 2006.
Posted Sunday night, 5th November 2006.
I take no responsibility for the following comments.
Please forgive if i offend, but when you need to rant, you need to rant.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why the hell are women sooo fucking difficult!
Do they all expect you to be fucking psychic and know exactly what they want, when they want.
All they wanna do nowadays is just have sex! and i just got to the point to where im ready to romance and love, and now they dont want that shit cuz its too cheesy, or too fucking cliche!
And What The Fuck does everyone have about sex! Im not sure i want the shit, its just gonna make hassells. You can take a normal sane man, give him sex and the fucker will change overnight to a sex crazed fiend who spends the rest of his fucking life chasing the fucking pussy. Have we as men devolved into such a primitive race where we do nothing but spend all our money and last waking moment chasing the damned pussy!
All women are evil, but i still want one! am i fucking crazy or what?!
AHHHHH!
I feel like smashing my head against a fucking brick wall, this character sucks and i want a new one!
Yes i want sex.
Yes i want romance.
Yes i want love.
I have "evil" eden saying just go out get laid, dont think about the consequences. And the i have "good" eden saying go out, romance a beautiful woman, fall in love and live a happy life.
I have no fucking idea what the hell i want anymore, well sorta, i know right now i want some fucking booze. I can see it now at a future AA (alcoholics Anomynous) "Do you drink to escape reality eden?", yes i drink to escape fucking reality.
I want to live. I want to die. I want someone to want me. I want someone to need me. I want to be loved by someone. I want to be smart. I want to be intelligent. I want to cry. I want to laugh. I want to be accepted by my friends. I want to stop wearing masks. I want someone to see me. I want to stop feeling like i have to live up to everyone expectations.
Yes, i AM uncomfortable being around oscar and bec when they are together. I feel like i am losing my best friend since high school, like a brother to me. So when he goes, who am i gonna have to talk to? Aint no other person im gonna be able to rant on about women, money and games. I'll just become some old crazy dude who lives underground in a hovel and yells obscenities to ppl passing by. I know i have some serious trust issues, and to trust someone so much and then lose your best friend to the first piece of ass that comes along, well .......
I guess i should get started on that hovel.
I cant say that bec is a bad or evil person for doing what she is doing, she has been nothing but supportive and has been a great person since i have moved in with her. All i have done is pushed her away. There is no reason why i cant be happy that my best friend (who was prolly never gone leave the house anyway) and someone who i gave alot of trust to very early in a close friendship to get together if they like each other that much. So instead of being happy for both of them, i might have pushed both of them away so they both hate me. I had no intention of ever doing that, but i fear i have.
Hopefully one day i will learn not how to be such a dickhead, and maybe i will learn to appreciate the friends i do have.