It can't be love if you throw it about.
Hello all. long time no see, i dunno i been slacking on this thing. so i thought id update before i go nap. well im not gonna do a jackie thing, im just gonna put what i remember thats important. well i dont even remember what day i freakin left on last. well friday i got my glasses. they look ok, i got complemented alot at work. i hated it. friday at lunch rachel and courtney use my sweater pocket as a arm and hand warmer. work friday was easy. saturday.woke up to my parents yelling, and they presisted to fight for 4 hours. because my mom put a big scratch in the bumper of my grandmas jimmy(its a suv thing you pervs). and my mom being the female she was, she got mad at my dad and called him an asshole for him getting mad at her for doing it. all my mom had to say was "sorry pat i should probily be more carful." instead of her being like "STOP BEING A FUCKING ASSHOLE." sure im not saying it was all my moms fault but ya it could have easily been avoided. my dad spent the past 3 days in the basment, i havnt seen him eat. and hes been really bitchy. they are still fighting everyday so far. i just hated how i was brought up in there yelling. my mom of all people tried putting a blame on me on somthing i did about 3 years ago. how can you do that on your own fuck up? ya when i was 14 i never drove anything before and i backed my dads truck with the bed door down into my grandmas jimmy. and my moms was like saturday "what about tyler you never yelled at him." ya right... i got bitched at hardcore. now its just a joke to everyone, i hate it when they bring it up, to everyone else its a joke to me. it hurts. makes me feel like less of a person. so i really wanst up to anything saturday.i tried though to be nice and smile at work and it didnt work somtimes. saturday night. gigi got a new sn, i didnt know, so she msg's me and says guess who. i thought it was my friends mandy because the sn was "prepsburnwell" and she said no and she gave me a hint saying shes cute. well i know alot of females that are cute. and i figured out it was gigi, and i said "sorry i just didnt think ud talk to me." and she got mad at me. im sorry i still thought i was on your "Screw off" list. is why i said that. she never would msg me and talk to me. she wouldnt achknowledge i was online, so im just sopose to expect that shes just gonna msg me and be all like HI GUESS WHO THIS IS. not trying to put any blame. she basicly said. she didnt want anything form me. no more hi's, no more Good byes. that bummed me out. she said "what would i want from you." and i couldnt think of anything. i really cant and i said "you got friends, you got a bf your popular, you right you dont need me, im sorry, bye." was the basist of it. guhhh i still dont know why i still cared. but i was accused of being jealous of her getting a bf. im not jealous at all. its just how would u expect me to take it. never jealous im glad she got a bf, better then saying you have me, alot better. Jackie got frustrated at me Friday night, my dad wanted to play poker and black jack, plus i was shot and wanted to sleep so i said ya i gotta get off line and im gonna go to bed, i laid in bed for like 10 min and just passed out.but thats ok everything is kool. love ya tons jackie. talked to meaghan a bunch, always glad to do that =-). she was botherd really bad sunday. i tried to help her with it and everything make her feel loved, because im sure she wasnt feeling it. i hope i did a good job hope u feel better meg *muahz* love ya tons. sherri and tiff hung out all weekend i guess they had a bunch of fun, and tiff wants to see me in my glasses. guhhhhh why, save yourself the terror. talked to jackie alot also. and nick, nick was on some seriouse speed or somthing he was just little to fucked up for me. jackies ears have been hard on her, but shes getting better *muahz* all better =-) told ya it works love ya tons jackie. football packers got owned, vikings got owned, raiders barly lost oh well they suck this year. wensday i got a doctor appointment, i dont think i have anything planed these last 2 days just find out from there.but im feeling pretty blank. i jsut think once in a while i get. an unblank slate and a feeling shows up, otherwise, i just feel like a doll and someone just picks me up and makes me have a feeling. anyway im outat here take it easy all im gonna nap love ya tons peace.
Tyler
Tyler