Danya had a driver take them the part of the city where Will used to live; lived when he was a whore, a junkie, and not his Colt. Jason had rousted every fledgling lead from anything Danny or his little squatters could give him and ended up nowhere. Back at the house no one had called demanding ransom, just as Jason suspected they wouldn't. This was not about money, it was about revenge, and Devlin; the twating shite bastard was laughing in his grave.
Devlin had told him, warned him and Jason had arrogantly cast his threats aside as empty. Fucking Devlin; if he had never met Carolina then Devlin would have never fucking existed for Jason and, FUCKING BASTARD FUCK it wasn't her fault. It was his, all his; not Devlin, not Orlando's, not Colt's but him. Him: He was a terrible father, useless as a protector and nothing but the gutter trash his father had told him he would always be.
Jason rubbed his forehead and knew he needed help and he needed it now. "Danya, take me to the safe house. We all need sleep." Jason raised his blood shot eyes looking into an all but identical pair.
"I am sorry my friend."
"Shut it." Jason said softly. "The only one I blame is m'self. I can't be told different so don't waste y'breath. Just get me t'Yank and then get some sleep, yeah?"
Danya nodded, promised that he would and told the driver where to take them. Jason lay his head back against the seat and closed his eyes. Every ounce of his body hurt, every joint, every muscle, every everything. Before long they arrived at the safe house, Jason pulled himself out of the car and greeted Mike. Eddie was fine; not a hair touched and in the kitchen. Jason thanked his friend and headed into the room smiling for the first time that night as he saw his beloved Yank.
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 11 2004, 17:44:42 UTC
He'd paced until it felt like the room was shrinking around him and finally all the restless energy dissipated, faded into weariness. Sitting at the table, his fingers steepled and his chin leaning one his hands, Eddie sat unmoving until Jason's voice broke him from his reverie and he looked up at his lover.
Eddie thought, for a moment, that it was over and Jason had found Will. But the burst of relief was shortlived. Jason's eyes were too desperate, too dark for the news to be good. He stood up and took the few steps that brought him to Jason, wrapping his arms around him. "What's going on?"
Re: Safe Housemark_kosikOctober 11 2004, 20:03:38 UTC
Jason burrowed his face in Eddie's neck for a moment and breathed deeply. "He's gone. Can't find him...What am I going t'do?" The sob caught Jason off guard and he clung to Eddie, his only constant.
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 11 2004, 21:28:57 UTC
Running one hand up Jason's neck, holding him tightly, Eddie spoke in a low soothing voice. "Hey now. We'll find him, Jason." Eddie tried not to think about the possibility that they wouldn't. That didn't help anyone, least of all Will or Jason.
Eddie pressed a kiss to Jason's cheek and then pulled back so he could look properly at him. "What do you know about what happened, just the plain facts? Talk me through it."
Re: Safe Housemark_kosikOctober 12 2004, 16:09:10 UTC
Jason swallowed hard, trying to cease his tears as he searched Eddie's concerned expression. Jason could breathe a little easier now that Eddie was right in front of him. "Three men. Broke int'm'flat. Orlando and Colt there there. They took Colt; wanted him; knew who he was and knocked Orlando unconscious leaving him behind."
Jason swallowed as tears obstructed his gaze. "That shite bastard Devlin said that once he was dead Colt would be taken. I didn't take him seriously past keeping guards on Colt but-s'my fault, Yank. I should have been with Colt. Should have told him like Evan said to...but I didn't want to hurt him. He's been upset lately, pulling from me; and then Gabriel came t'stay and he was happy again. Like before and you came home t'me so I-I-I should have told him."
Jason sucked his lips into his mouth and helplessly looked at Eddie. "Colt's gone because m'a terrible father..."
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 12 2004, 18:51:17 UTC
"No. You listen to me. He's gone because someone took him, no matter what you did or didn't do. Don't take the blame for someone else's actions." Eddie held Jason's face firmly between his hands. "Should'ves, what-ifs, they don't matter so don't torture yourself with'em."
God, he was glad Jason was there. Even though Will hadn't been found and Jason was going through hell. Eddie was going to go stir-crazy in this house if he didn't have something to distract him.
Re: Safe Housemark_kosikOctober 13 2004, 12:09:59 UTC
Jason Leaned foreward and kissed Eddie's lips and rest his forehead against his boyfriend's, hands clasping Eddie's in return. "I knew things; I should have told Colt, should have made more arrangements and been smarter. Nothing y'can say will change that, Yank. I wish, but it won't."
Tears rolled down Jason's face. "Can y'still love me? Even if I killed m'own son?"
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 13 2004, 20:34:40 UTC
Eddie'd do anything to take this pain from Jason. All he could do was hold him tightly and try to help him. "I'll never stop loving you. I swear, I couldn't stop if I wanted to. You've got me and I ain't going nowhere, so don't worry about you and me."
He wiped Jason's tears from his cheeks. "There's people you can call to help you find him, isn't there? Your boss?"
Re: Safe Housemark_kosikOctober 13 2004, 23:26:45 UTC
The sobs came quickly, Jason's chest constricting as he clung to Eddie and buried his face against his throat, resting his head upon his boyfriend's shoulder. "I can't. He told me t'tell, Colt and I-and I...I..." Jason dissolved into tears and sobbed as the emotions of the prior night overwhelmed him.
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 14 2004, 02:10:48 UTC
Talking was no good now, Eddie realized, not while Jason was just beginning to react to what had happened. The stress was overtaking him and Eddie was the strong one this time. Eddie was there for Jason to lean on and fall apart around, because Eddie'd pick up the pieces.
So he held Jason, stroking his hair, trying to comfort him as best as he could even while he knew the only thing that would really comfort Jason was Will's return.
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 15 2004, 04:53:06 UTC
Reaching out for Jason, Eddie led him to the bedroom he'd seen when being shown around the safehouse before. Closing the door, he undressed Jason slowly, tenderly, and helped him into bed before getting undressed himself.
Spooning around Jason, Eddie pressed and arm against Jason's chest, holding them tightly against each other. Kissing along Jason's cheek as he stroked Jason's hair softly with his other hand, Eddie murmured, "We'll find him, Jason. We'll find him. Get some rest now. I'll be here when you wake up."
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 16 2004, 01:02:05 UTC
"I love you too." Eddie kissed Jason softly on the corner of his lips, rubbing slow circles on his chest. He'd stay awake while Jason slept, he'd watch over him.
Re: Safe Houseeddieboone_tmOctober 18 2004, 02:27:20 UTC
Eddie had been dozing, drifting in and out of soft sleep as he stayed close to Jason. The warmth they were sharing washed over him like water, he didn't even realize he'd been sleeping until Jason startled him awake.
"Jason, it's me, it's Eddie," he said, holding onto Jason with one hand on his shoulder. Squeezing just a little, just to make sure his presence was felt, he waited for recognition to enter Jason's eyes.
Devlin had told him, warned him and Jason had arrogantly cast his threats aside as empty. Fucking Devlin; if he had never met Carolina then Devlin would have never fucking existed for Jason and, FUCKING BASTARD FUCK it wasn't her fault. It was his, all his; not Devlin, not Orlando's, not Colt's but him. Him: He was a terrible father, useless as a protector and nothing but the gutter trash his father had told him he would always be.
Jason rubbed his forehead and knew he needed help and he needed it now. "Danya, take me to the safe house. We all need sleep." Jason raised his blood shot eyes looking into an all but identical pair.
"I am sorry my friend."
"Shut it." Jason said softly. "The only one I blame is m'self. I can't be told different so don't waste y'breath. Just get me t'Yank and then get some sleep, yeah?"
Danya nodded, promised that he would and told the driver where to take them. Jason lay his head back against the seat and closed his eyes. Every ounce of his body hurt, every joint, every muscle, every everything. Before long they arrived at the safe house, Jason pulled himself out of the car and greeted Mike. Eddie was fine; not a hair touched and in the kitchen. Jason thanked his friend and headed into the room smiling for the first time that night as he saw his beloved Yank.
"Hey, Baby."
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Eddie thought, for a moment, that it was over and Jason had found Will. But the burst of relief was shortlived. Jason's eyes were too desperate, too dark for the news to be good. He stood up and took the few steps that brought him to Jason, wrapping his arms around him. "What's going on?"
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Eddie pressed a kiss to Jason's cheek and then pulled back so he could look properly at him. "What do you know about what happened, just the plain facts? Talk me through it."
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Jason swallowed as tears obstructed his gaze. "That shite bastard Devlin said that once he was dead Colt would be taken. I didn't take him seriously past keeping guards on Colt but-s'my fault, Yank. I should have been with Colt. Should have told him like Evan said to...but I didn't want to hurt him. He's been upset lately, pulling from me; and then Gabriel came t'stay and he was happy again. Like before and you came home t'me so I-I-I should have told him."
Jason sucked his lips into his mouth and helplessly looked at Eddie. "Colt's gone because m'a terrible father..."
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God, he was glad Jason was there. Even though Will hadn't been found and Jason was going through hell. Eddie was going to go stir-crazy in this house if he didn't have something to distract him.
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Tears rolled down Jason's face. "Can y'still love me? Even if I killed m'own son?"
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He wiped Jason's tears from his cheeks. "There's people you can call to help you find him, isn't there? Your boss?"
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"Colt!"
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So he held Jason, stroking his hair, trying to comfort him as best as he could even while he knew the only thing that would really comfort Jason was Will's return.
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"M'tired...We should sleep f'a while...Bed?" It was a question, a plea and Jason looked at Eddie dependant upon him to lead the way.
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Spooning around Jason, Eddie pressed and arm against Jason's chest, holding them tightly against each other. Kissing along Jason's cheek as he stroked Jason's hair softly with his other hand, Eddie murmured, "We'll find him, Jason. We'll find him. Get some rest now. I'll be here when you wake up."
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"You shame me Jason. How could you? I believed in you and what thanks do I get? You let him die!"
She strikes him again, slap upon slap as he backs away trying to grab her wrists but she's too fast. "You did this! It's all on you! You killed him!"
Jason gasped, the air not flowing to his lungs and getting cloged in his throat as he sat up quickly, flailing away from Eddie's touch.
"I'm sorry!"
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"Jason, it's me, it's Eddie," he said, holding onto Jason with one hand on his shoulder. Squeezing just a little, just to make sure his presence was felt, he waited for recognition to enter Jason's eyes.
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