Letters to Jason #3
Dear Jason
I miss you a lot. I miss touching you, talking to you. I miss seeing you smile. I didn’t even notice how much you’ve become a part of my life. It just happened while I wasn’t looking and now I just want to come back to you. And I will soon. It’s not that long to be away. Not that long at all. I can make it. I can do this. I can.
I’m sorry. It was just a little frightening a little surprising, hearing that you’ve adopted a son. Still is. It’s hard to imagine, when I’m not there to see it or meet Will. I think I’ll be better at getting settled to that when I get back and it seems more real. And I’m sorry about the whole marriage thing. I just never want to disappoint you. I want to give you everything you want.
Did a lot of work today. My arms are sore. I thought I was fit before, but I reckon by the time this is done I’m gonna be pretty damn healthy. The pillow is looking more and more inviting every minute.
I’m tired, Jason. It’s like I’ve been awake too long and now I just want to go to sleep. I want this to be over. I want a drink. Everything I want is bad for me, is damn stupid to want. Except you. I want you, and you aren’t bad for me. You’ve promised that you’re mine and I’m yours, and that’s the only good thing I can hold onto now. You.
I love you. I miss you. Don’t worry about me, it’s pretty good here. Be better if I were with you, but if wishes were fishes, huh? I love you, I couldn’t forget you if I tried. I want us too. I love you.
I love you a thousand million times.
Eddie
I miss you a lot. I miss touching you, talking to you. I miss seeing you smile. I didn’t even notice how much you’ve become a part of my life. It just happened while I wasn’t looking and now I just want to come back to you. And I will soon. It’s not that long to be away. Not that long at all. I can make it. I can do this. I can.
I’m sorry. It was just a little frightening a little surprising, hearing that you’ve adopted a son. Still is. It’s hard to imagine, when I’m not there to see it or meet Will. I think I’ll be better at getting settled to that when I get back and it seems more real. And I’m sorry about the whole marriage thing. I just never want to disappoint you. I want to give you everything you want.
Did a lot of work today. My arms are sore. I thought I was fit before, but I reckon by the time this is done I’m gonna be pretty damn healthy. The pillow is looking more and more inviting every minute.
I’m tired, Jason. It’s like I’ve been awake too long and now I just want to go to sleep. I want this to be over. I want a drink. Everything I want is bad for me, is damn stupid to want. Except you. I want you, and you aren’t bad for me. You’ve promised that you’re mine and I’m yours, and that’s the only good thing I can hold onto now. You.
I love you. I miss you. Don’t worry about me, it’s pretty good here. Be better if I were with you, but if wishes were fishes, huh? I love you, I couldn’t forget you if I tried. I want us too. I love you.
I love you a thousand million times.
Eddie