The Return of a Sad Man

[ed_rex]

It's over. On Tuesday night my heart was cast aside like an unwanted toy. And suddenly, much that had confounded and confused me was made clear; much that I had thought was my fault became more complex, and my own sense of culpability was much reduced, if not eliminated entirely.

In other words, Laura and I have broken up. It gives me some comfort

Comments

[stolen_identity]

i'm really sorry to hear that, geoff :(

if you want to talk over drinks, i will try to be as good of a listener as you were for me when i broke up with dave.

*hugs*

Me Too ...

[ed_rex]

Thanks, KT. I've actually been meaning to contact you about that drink ever since the Olympics ended but, as I think I said in my post, I've been too stressed-out to make much of an effort to reach out to people.

I'd love to.

[ellie_elephant]

I don't really have any experience in consoling friends after break ups, since none of my friends have had relationships as close as the one between you and Laura. All I can say is that I'm sorry it ended so badly for you, and I really hope you find happiness again.

I'm looking forward to reading your posts again - I've also been gone from LJ-land for the past few months.

No Consolation Required

[ed_rex]

There really isn't anything anyone could say that would help - only time and distractions will do that. But thanks for your kind thoughts.

You really have been gone from LJ for a long time, by the way. I recall it had already been a long time when I dropped off the map. I hope you're doing well - are you still in Thailand>

Re: No Consolation Required

[ellie_elephant]

I'll be in Thailand until mid-August, and then it's off to the land of sausages and beer. Yay! Over the past few months, I've been terribly busy with exams, graduating, saying goodbye to people I'd known for over ten years, so I never got around to posting... and the longer you don't post, the more things you have to update about, and then you just end up putting it off, until you have even more to post about. It's a vicious cycle.

Re: No Consolation Required

[ed_rex]

"...and the longer you don't post, the more things you have to update about ..."

I know what that's all about. And I can only imagine that you have been extremely busy. Do you intend to return to Thailand some day, or is this an entirely new stage in your life?

Regardless (and though I'm sorry you didn't end up at a university in Canada), I look forward to reading your impressions of Europe in the months and years ahead.

[ed_rex]

I've never managed to believed that (after all, how do you explain the Holocaust with that philosophy?), but in this case, I think you're right. And in any event, I appreciate the sentiment - thanks.

[ed_rex]

Oh shit, I'm sorry! I really should know better. (In fact I do know better. Mea culpa.

[tyskkvinna]

You have my empathy, more for the process of the loss, than the loss itself, because in the end, the latter is the easy part.

I hope for sunnier skies in your world, and it's good to see you back on Livejournal.

[ed_rex]

Thanks - I really do seem to be holding up remarkably well, all things considered. And I'm glad to be back.

[amaaanda]

I'm sorry Geoff, I know how much she meant to you once upon a time. Misery is misery, though, and if you're unhappy, you were right to stop it.

The More I Think About It ...

[ed_rex]

... the more I realize I should have stopped it quite some time ago. Love may not be blind, but it sure as hell can blind me.