How I'm actually doing right now... (updated 10-16-08)

[ed209uardo]

… So, as some of you may know, things are not going well in the land of Ed & Ashley, to the point where that part of the world may cease to exist. I’ve been holding a lot in for a very long time, and with Ashley leaving, I’ve come apart at the seams. I’ve been unloading on just about anyone that will listen, and I’m hoping that posting about what’s

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[dellarte]

You have to do what is right for you. Right now I would not make any rash decisions, go over what is going on with your therapist as he/she is an outside party with experience in such matters. You have your friends, we will be here for you.

Kiska

[ne]

I agree with this as well.
Come to the therapist with everything you have stated here, let them know how you are feeling, what has prompted it, how you were feeling etc.
Hugs hun

[ed209uardo]

... We did this morning. It's been a busy day at work, so I haven't finished absorbing everything yet. Thank you...

[ed209uardo]

... We're still agreeing to go to therapy. We went this morning. I'm not sure it improved things, but it help open my eyes to a few things. Beyond everything I've mentioned going on with me, I have alot of unresolved guilt regarding my father's death. I need to properly grieve. I'll need to find help for that, and I'll probably need to make another trip to see my family, talk to my brother about his planned trip to scatter the ashes. I know I have friends; I just have to learn how to lean on them when needed. The last few weeks have helped me accept that. Thank you. Hope you trip is going well...

[nausved]

I feel so horrible for both of you, and I hope you can each find what will make you happy (whether together or apart).

It's not my place to give advice-especially considering my limited experience with relationships and marriages-but I do hope you do not give up on one another, especially with Theo in the picture.

I've heard that it is inevitable for two married people to fall out of love. Marriage is simply what holds them together until they can fall back in again.

[ed209uardo]

... Thank you for your concern. I value your opinion. Of what I've seen, your heart and mind help make up for alot of the experience you feel you lack. Your parents did good, and so have you so far...

[hopscotchn9]

Please lock this..

[not_hothead_yet]

a bit of advice: when you commit an injustice against another person, you lose claim to self-rightous indignation about privacy issues.

Oh geez...

[ed209uardo]

... Thanks for the support, but I think her comment is being blown out of proportion...

[hopscotchn9]

Whoa.. You have heard one side and that is it.. which is why I didn't want this here. Don't be a bitch when you nothing of the situation.

[not_hothead_yet]

go here

It saved my sanity many times. I've been where you are. Any time you need to talk, hit me up.

[ed209uardo]

... Although I'm not totally agreeing with some of the stuff I've skimmed so far, some of it looks like it will be very helpful. Thank you...

[mina0407]

I wanted to recommend a book for you to read, although it's not anything that's specifically related to your immediate situation. It's called The Way of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman.

I read this book when I was at a really low point in my life and it's amazing how it changed my outlook on things.

[ed209uardo]

Thanks. Do you know if the movie is any good?

[mina0407]

I haven't seen the movie. After having read the book, I really don't see how a movie could do it justice, but I could be wrong :)