My LJ Can drive now - 16yrs?
I was in a weird place tonight. I was looking at waybackmachine while failing over exchange databases and reading an old LJer (I keep wanting to say blogger) and was thinking...gosh, I wondered if I sounded like that when I was the same age/timeframe so I pulled up my old LJ and scrolled back to some posts from 2001.
I have to admit, I rarely post anything to FB which is what EVERYONE uses these days. mainly because it's just so damn public. My relatives are on there to see pics of the kids...etc.
I miss having a place to vent my thoughts. It wasn't really about comments and groups for me. I had many and appreciated all of them and their support and words over the years. For me it was very cathartic just doing a massive brain dump and then re-reading my thoughts and emotions and gauging growth or steps back or changes in opinions.
I've given thought of coming back and just posting for posting sake. Once I commit it to text it's hard to deny. As the very wise judge on people's court says "write it - regret it, say it - forget it"
It's funny reading back and reliving how little free time I thought I had and how stressful my jobs were compared to now. It's amazing to think where I am today and how I never would have predicted this when I was 21-22-23.
The nuts and bolts -
Corran is in 7th grade. Several honors classes and was 1st chair in trombone in 6th and in the "advanced" band this year. He's 5'3 and 110lbs already. I took a pic of our arms side by side and he's got longer/thicker arms than me. He's also wicked good at basketball but 6th graders can't play...i'm encouraging him to try out this year.
Quinn is in 4th. Seems like just yesterday I started 4th grade. He finds life entirely too easy. he's super laid back, doesn't have to work to do well at school, has hordes of kids following him around wanting to be his friend. I'm kind of jealous. he's my polar opposite personality wise. He's my mini-me physically however. He's 5'1 and 75lbs now. He's a toothpick but about a foot taller than everyone in his grade.
Job - Current job has been going on for 2+ years. I was in LOOOOVEEE with my job until recently but there has been some management issues and changes that I'm not overly pleased with. I'm hoping it's growing pains and things will shake out, but I don't know.
My current focus is being primary on all things network (Switches, routers, wifi, firewalls, SD WAN) Email (can you believe i've supported exch 5.5 - 2013?) VMware, AD, Storage, Security stuff.
I've recently reopened a can of worms I believe sealed and realized I still hold onto some defense/reactions from childhood. I probably ought to seek therapy but good god, I am lucky to get a few hours of sleep. I don't have free time for that nonsense.
Probably why I feel an urge to journal again.
Lets see - other big changes since LJ.
Finally quit smoking after who knows how long. Admittedly I use an ecig...so depends on your def of quitting I suppose.
I've also given up my daily dew habit, which was painful and I find if I ever break my fast I crave sugar for days.
Because of this (and probably some manual labor at work) I've lost about 30ish pounds and gone from a size 6/8 I was when I started at current job 2yrs ago to a paltry 0/2. Freak'n size 0 jeans. Wot?
Still in the albatross, er, house. After being in need of serious upgrades/fixes when I BOUGHT it 12yrs ago and ignoring it for.... 12 years.... I'm being forced into home renovations in a big way. Last summer I replaced all the windows and doors and I will admit...I hate the house less.
Then a few months ago tiles started popping in the kitchen as they have been threatening to for ages. Then the plumbing stack in my shower started leaking causing mysterious puddles in my bedroom but NOT bathroom. Crazy.
So i'm talking to my plumber about going ahead and gutting my bathroom completely (it's fairly small and ALLLLL bad. might as well do it correct while I'm tearing out shower) and bumping a few walls to make my room logical and make bathroom and closet changes.
Since my nasty 30yr old cheap carpet was in need of replacing decades ago has gotten a couple of underground puddles until we figured out the shower deal....it's probably going to be replaced and the entire master suite will get done at one fell swoop.
And I am EVER so thankful for the first time in my life i'm not squeezing pennies and wondering how I can fix something or make something work for free or cheap like i've always had to do. I can actually pay cash and do what I want. Admittedly spending money on this will KILL me to do....I'm super glad I can. SUPER GLAD. I think it will be good for me, as with the windows I think it may temper my hatred of the house a bit. I may become some sort of inattentive mother and quasi hermit. I refuse to leave my den of awesome guys. Just slip some poptarts under the door and don't burn the house down.
On the same thread, the water heater has hit it's 14yr mark and is overdue for a swap. So that gets added to the list. The kitchen floor while ugly and irksome can wait.
The hand-me-down couch is suffering from bald spots and lets admit it was never MY taste.
Joybird has a couch i've been eyeballing for awhile, and it's 20% off for the weekend, and can be made a custom 120" length meaning me + gigantic kids might actually FIT on the couch again.
I've gone from baby infront of me laying on side and corran tucked behind my legs to "only one at a time" to "dude, I've got 1/3rd of the couch and your foot in my ass...MOVE OVER" and thats the littler one!
A 10ft sofa might actually fit me + a kid laying down snuggling at opposite ends. for awhile anyway.
But even at 20% off thats a 3K pricetag. I have it. But I have it BECAUSE I never spend it.
Damn karma. you a funny lady.
I have to admit, I rarely post anything to FB which is what EVERYONE uses these days. mainly because it's just so damn public. My relatives are on there to see pics of the kids...etc.
I miss having a place to vent my thoughts. It wasn't really about comments and groups for me. I had many and appreciated all of them and their support and words over the years. For me it was very cathartic just doing a massive brain dump and then re-reading my thoughts and emotions and gauging growth or steps back or changes in opinions.
I've given thought of coming back and just posting for posting sake. Once I commit it to text it's hard to deny. As the very wise judge on people's court says "write it - regret it, say it - forget it"
It's funny reading back and reliving how little free time I thought I had and how stressful my jobs were compared to now. It's amazing to think where I am today and how I never would have predicted this when I was 21-22-23.
The nuts and bolts -
Corran is in 7th grade. Several honors classes and was 1st chair in trombone in 6th and in the "advanced" band this year. He's 5'3 and 110lbs already. I took a pic of our arms side by side and he's got longer/thicker arms than me. He's also wicked good at basketball but 6th graders can't play...i'm encouraging him to try out this year.
Quinn is in 4th. Seems like just yesterday I started 4th grade. He finds life entirely too easy. he's super laid back, doesn't have to work to do well at school, has hordes of kids following him around wanting to be his friend. I'm kind of jealous. he's my polar opposite personality wise. He's my mini-me physically however. He's 5'1 and 75lbs now. He's a toothpick but about a foot taller than everyone in his grade.
Job - Current job has been going on for 2+ years. I was in LOOOOVEEE with my job until recently but there has been some management issues and changes that I'm not overly pleased with. I'm hoping it's growing pains and things will shake out, but I don't know.
My current focus is being primary on all things network (Switches, routers, wifi, firewalls, SD WAN) Email (can you believe i've supported exch 5.5 - 2013?) VMware, AD, Storage, Security stuff.
I've recently reopened a can of worms I believe sealed and realized I still hold onto some defense/reactions from childhood. I probably ought to seek therapy but good god, I am lucky to get a few hours of sleep. I don't have free time for that nonsense.
Probably why I feel an urge to journal again.
Lets see - other big changes since LJ.
Finally quit smoking after who knows how long. Admittedly I use an ecig...so depends on your def of quitting I suppose.
I've also given up my daily dew habit, which was painful and I find if I ever break my fast I crave sugar for days.
Because of this (and probably some manual labor at work) I've lost about 30ish pounds and gone from a size 6/8 I was when I started at current job 2yrs ago to a paltry 0/2. Freak'n size 0 jeans. Wot?
Still in the albatross, er, house. After being in need of serious upgrades/fixes when I BOUGHT it 12yrs ago and ignoring it for.... 12 years.... I'm being forced into home renovations in a big way. Last summer I replaced all the windows and doors and I will admit...I hate the house less.
Then a few months ago tiles started popping in the kitchen as they have been threatening to for ages. Then the plumbing stack in my shower started leaking causing mysterious puddles in my bedroom but NOT bathroom. Crazy.
So i'm talking to my plumber about going ahead and gutting my bathroom completely (it's fairly small and ALLLLL bad. might as well do it correct while I'm tearing out shower) and bumping a few walls to make my room logical and make bathroom and closet changes.
Since my nasty 30yr old cheap carpet was in need of replacing decades ago has gotten a couple of underground puddles until we figured out the shower deal....it's probably going to be replaced and the entire master suite will get done at one fell swoop.
And I am EVER so thankful for the first time in my life i'm not squeezing pennies and wondering how I can fix something or make something work for free or cheap like i've always had to do. I can actually pay cash and do what I want. Admittedly spending money on this will KILL me to do....I'm super glad I can. SUPER GLAD. I think it will be good for me, as with the windows I think it may temper my hatred of the house a bit. I may become some sort of inattentive mother and quasi hermit. I refuse to leave my den of awesome guys. Just slip some poptarts under the door and don't burn the house down.
On the same thread, the water heater has hit it's 14yr mark and is overdue for a swap. So that gets added to the list. The kitchen floor while ugly and irksome can wait.
The hand-me-down couch is suffering from bald spots and lets admit it was never MY taste.
Joybird has a couch i've been eyeballing for awhile, and it's 20% off for the weekend, and can be made a custom 120" length meaning me + gigantic kids might actually FIT on the couch again.
I've gone from baby infront of me laying on side and corran tucked behind my legs to "only one at a time" to "dude, I've got 1/3rd of the couch and your foot in my ass...MOVE OVER" and thats the littler one!
A 10ft sofa might actually fit me + a kid laying down snuggling at opposite ends. for awhile anyway.
But even at 20% off thats a 3K pricetag. I have it. But I have it BECAUSE I never spend it.
Damn karma. you a funny lady.