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[ectopichartache]

things have been mixed up for awhile. and im beginning to think i might like the challenges a bit too much. i once thought an easy relationship with little to no fighting was highly obtainable and desireable. now, i want and need a challenge.
ive been thrown into the world of the single, "together", and girlfriend status.
i just dont know anymore.
i think i keep pushing people away, well in some relationships where i feel trapped or not confident.
its definitely a win/lose defense mechanism ive inherited.
who knows.
im just being random
and im thinking too much.

and trevor, ill think of what we'll make ...some...day.

ADORE this song. idioteque:

"Who's in a bunker?
Who's in a bunker?
Women and children first
And the children first
And the children
I'll laugh until my head comes off
I'll swallow till I burst
Until I burst
Until I

Who's in a bunker?
Who's in a bunker?
I have seen too much
I haven't seen enough
You haven't seen it
I'll laugh until my head comes off
Women and children first
And children first
And children

Here I'm allowed
Everything all of the time
Here I'm allowed
Everything all of the time

Ice age coming
Ice age coming
Let me hear both sides
Let me hear both sides
Let me hear both
Ice age coming
Ice age coming
Throw it in the fire
Throw it in the fire
Throw it in the

We're not scaremongering
This is really happening
Happening
We're not scaremongering
This is really happening
Happening
Mobiles squirking
Mobiles chirping
Take the money and run
Take the money and run
Take the money

Here I'm allowed (background: the first of the children x6)
Everything all of the time
Here I'm allowed
Everything all of the time

Here I'm allowed
Everything all of the time
Here I'm allowed
Everything all of the time

The first of the children"