pre-life crisis?
so i don't ever write in this thing...hardly ever, at least. but i read it a lot. just to see what people are up to. i miss y'all. ...
especially now. i feel like, as a lot of people have said, there's been a lot of pressure to look towards the future as of late. i hate the "i know how you feel" lines, but i do feel like i'm in a similar boat. i've really be struggling a lot this year. i went back to chicago from mobile in september, and i was just overwhelmed and stressed. i was worried that i wouldn't be able to handle this pressure or that pressure, blah, blah, blah. i worked myself into a rut, but then i quit. :)
january came. i dyed my hair bright red, took a leave of absence from school (chicago in winter is not a happy place, i'm going back in september to school in paris, wahoo!), and moved in with friends in charlotte, nc. here, i'm soaking in the sunshine, writing a lot, taking pictures that the local coffee shop is hanging and selling, and teaching yoga/ pilates. it's beautiful. i feel really blessed to have the luxury that's been exploring and regrouping, and i've learned a lot. it's been incredible to gain some perspective...in chicago (that ivory tower of academia), i felt like school was all there was. i ate on campus most of the time, lived on campus, worked on campus, etc...life revolves around friends from college, classes, and we wonder how it is that we lose touch with the outside world, how it is that we put so much emphasis on this paper or that grade. i feel like i've stepped out of it to look back at chicago and say, "i win." because however tough it is and however much i feel that i have to succeed at this set path, in truth, that's not the case. we have options like we'll never fully appreciate, and that's a very liberating thought. whether or not we "succeed" (whatever that means) at the road we've mapped out, there's always another plan, another path, another way. and as long as we can keep that in mind, we can smile and dance and teach our freaking yoga, looking back and shooting the bird to expectation. rock on, friends. life's a dance. :)
especially now. i feel like, as a lot of people have said, there's been a lot of pressure to look towards the future as of late. i hate the "i know how you feel" lines, but i do feel like i'm in a similar boat. i've really be struggling a lot this year. i went back to chicago from mobile in september, and i was just overwhelmed and stressed. i was worried that i wouldn't be able to handle this pressure or that pressure, blah, blah, blah. i worked myself into a rut, but then i quit. :)
january came. i dyed my hair bright red, took a leave of absence from school (chicago in winter is not a happy place, i'm going back in september to school in paris, wahoo!), and moved in with friends in charlotte, nc. here, i'm soaking in the sunshine, writing a lot, taking pictures that the local coffee shop is hanging and selling, and teaching yoga/ pilates. it's beautiful. i feel really blessed to have the luxury that's been exploring and regrouping, and i've learned a lot. it's been incredible to gain some perspective...in chicago (that ivory tower of academia), i felt like school was all there was. i ate on campus most of the time, lived on campus, worked on campus, etc...life revolves around friends from college, classes, and we wonder how it is that we lose touch with the outside world, how it is that we put so much emphasis on this paper or that grade. i feel like i've stepped out of it to look back at chicago and say, "i win." because however tough it is and however much i feel that i have to succeed at this set path, in truth, that's not the case. we have options like we'll never fully appreciate, and that's a very liberating thought. whether or not we "succeed" (whatever that means) at the road we've mapped out, there's always another plan, another path, another way. and as long as we can keep that in mind, we can smile and dance and teach our freaking yoga, looking back and shooting the bird to expectation. rock on, friends. life's a dance. :)