[Thread] Trauma

[cynicalmeilin]

Characters: AU!Li Meilin, AU!Li Syaoran, and AU!Sakura, open to Ssil
Where: Dor-Ennea
When: Third stage of the modplot, after Syaoran invites Meilin over here.
Summary: Meilin is upset over dying and seeks Syaoran for comfort.
Warnings: Angst, of course.

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[thexiaolang]

Xiao Lang jumped when he heard her calling for him through the door and hurried to answer it. He'd been waiting for her but that was so sudden and more urgent than he'd been expecting.

"Meilin," He said, noticing that she'd been crying. He knew she was scared, everyone was to some extent, but he didn't think she was that shaken.

[cynicalmeilin]

The door opened and Meilin looked up, looking upset. "Syao--" Meilin started to say, but cut herself off by throwing herself at her cousin, arms wrapping around him tightly. "I was so scared," she whimpered, shaking against him.

[scarredmistress]

Ying Fa appeared on the doorway of her room, green eyes looking at the newcomer worriedly. "M-Meilin-chan?" She started to walk towards her, but hesitated, especially when Meilin threw herself at Xiao Lang. She must be really scared. In the end, the Card Mistress moved forward to stand beside her husband, but made no move to touch the other girl or say anything more, just carefully watching her.

[thexiaolang]

Oh boy, Xiao Lang didn't know what to do. It had been so long since his cousin had hugged him or even tried to touch him. He just froze when she threw herself at him. He couldn't push her away, he worried about her and he did care, but he also couldn't hold her.

He glanced over at Ying Fa when she appeared next to him. "I-I know." He tried to sound reassuring and gentle and not betray how uncomfortable this was making him. "...You're safe now."

[cynicalmeilin]

Completely oblivious to Sakura's presence, Meilin's hold on his cousin only got tighter and she started crying harder, almost like a child. "I...died. Alone. I was burning, and it hurt, then it started to feel so cold. I'm scared. I don't want to die again and I definitely don't want to die alone!" she cried, still shivering violently. You weren't really supposed to say you're not afraid of death until you've lived through it and remained unaffected. Obviously, Meilin had been wrong when she said she didn't fear death, had overestimated herself, and was now paying the price.

[scarredmistress]

Ying Fa was worried now. This wasn't like Meilin at all. She'd always been strong, stronger than she ever was. "Should I... get her something to drink?" she asked Xiao Lang in a whisper, almost hesitantly. The other girl seemed to be oblivious to her presence, and she really wanted to help, somehow.

[thexiaolang]

Alone...

Xiao Lang had been through a lot but dieing alone. Now he could understand why she was so scared. Still he let her hold on to him while he tried to decide what to do.

Xiao Lang looked at Ying Fa and nodded when she spoke. "Yeah, make some tea." He whispered back.

"Meilin," He said, putting his hands on her shoulders and trying to pry his cousin away from him enough to look at her. "I won't let you die. And you don't have to be alone."

[cynicalmeilin]

Meilin let herself be pried off, but not without struggling a little. She stood in front of her cousin, rubbing her eyes. "I-I know," she said, sniffling.

[scarredmistress]

"I'll go make some tea," Ying Fa said quietly, looking at Meilin for a moment, then at Xiao Lang, before turning to leave the room. Yes, tea sounded good. Poor Meilin was having such a terrible time. Well, she'd died too, but at least she wasn't alone.

Meilin-chan had been there for me before. Now it's my turn.

((ooc: I've got busy times and a sporadic connection ahead, so feel free to skip me for a couple of turns? *luffs*))

[thexiaolang]

Xiao Lang looked at his cousin. If he let her go she might just latch on to him again so he kept his hands on her shoulders. "Is something else wrong?" He asked.

[cynicalmeilin]

Meilin shook her head. "Don't leave me. Please," she begs, hands landing on Syaoran's chest and fisting around the material of his shirt.

[thexiaolang]

Now he felt bad. During that whole ordeal he hadn't worried about her once, it hadn't occurred to him that he should. Xiao Lang had always thought she could take care of herself but now it looked like he was wrong; she needed him?

He loosened his hold on his cousin to just let her do what she wanted. "If you need me..."

[cynicalmeilin]

[ooc: anything what she wants at all?xD]

The girl immediately pressed forward again, throwing her arms around her cousin. At those four words she started crying again, burying her face against his neck. "I-I do," she sobbed, "Bad things will happen if you go again. I-I might die again. I don't want to." It was all very and overly dramatic, but she was really upset.

[thexiaolang]

[ooc: pff, go ahead xD]

"Alright." Xiao Lang leaned his head away, as she buried against his neck. No one had ever rubbed up against his neck like that. Although he wasn't going to fight her clinging it was just too uncomfortable the way things were so he put his hand on the top of her head to try and push it down. His shirt was much more absorbent.

Hadn't he just told her he wasn't going to let her die. "It's alright." He said in a more reassuring tone. "I'm not going anywhere. You're not going to die."

[cynicalmeilin]

Meilin sobbed against Syaoran's shift for several more minutes before her legs finally gave way beneath her, exhausted and upset she were. She tried to hold onto him to keep upright, but her hands only slid down his body as she ended up sitting on the floor, still crying. "I-I'm sorry."