Late nights are here again
Why is it that I always feel that writing in the middle of the night is perhaps the best thing for me? I don't really consider 11:30 late by normal standards, but I haven't really slept much over the past couple of days.
PotC was bad. Not just bad, like, awful. Such a pity. Oh well. I can't wait to see what happens, because it sounds like almost everyone was pissed off.
I spent the day in the Judge Advocates Office today. I had a blast. It is definitely something I think I want to look into now. The officers were a blast, but naturally I had more fun with the people my age, so spending thee day with an Airman First Class wasn't that bad. Nice boy too...hahaha.
What to do with myself, what to do.
I don't think I have anything else. I just felt like rambling, which seems to be what I do best here.
Oh. And I'm in some shit in the det. I failed my Pre-Calc class this semester. So that means I only completed 10 credit hours this semester. So that's a Form 16. And tack on another one for failing said class. And then I have to do something with a form and submitting an inquiry for some such. I believe that is just to make sure it isn't/won't be a habit. It worries me a bunch because I'm afraid that it came off that I didn't try, and I did. Just at that point in the semester (the latter half) I got lost hard core. So I didn't do homework, I didn't do well on tests. But hopefully it will be okay because my professor seemed to like me, and I'm planning on taking it again with her. I'm really frustrated and down about this. I fucked up again. It's so frustrating. I did it to myself, it's my fault. I have to admit blame, but it just sucks, you know? I've worked so hard, I'm so excited and motivated, and this one class shouldn't fuck me over, but I over-analyze everything. That's my job as a future officer, haha.
I'm afraid that I let my dad down. I feel like I can't tell him anything like that, for fear of him flipping out, and not trusting me, and not...whatever. I'm my own person, and he shouldn't matter, but his approval means everything to me, and he doesn't even know it. I think it's weird that I'm so close to my mom, and not close to my dad that much. I mean I am, I love him, and I'd do anything for him. We hang out, work on the cars, but it just isn't...I don't know what it is. Maybe it's just because naturally since I'm a girl, I was going to lean towards my mom, but growing up I was always with him, doing shit. I was the major tom-boy and always wanted to hang out with Daddy. Maybe I'm just exaggerating, or just have a ton of unresolved issues within myself, hahahahaha. That's an understatement.
Oh well. Life's looking up. I'm supposed to be in 3 different places tomorrow night, all on different sides of the valley. Great. I want to do them all too, that's the hard part. And none of these people know each other, or they do and they loathe and despise the other. We'll see how this goes. I never get to see any of these kids either. Ah! =O
And I got a new job. My background check went through so I can do training on Tuesday. I'm trying to decide if I'm going to just not show up to the MU on Tuesday, or if I'll call in and try to get cover. There really isn't enough people to get cover anyways, so either way it's useless. Hahaha.
Love from,
Kim
PotC was bad. Not just bad, like, awful. Such a pity. Oh well. I can't wait to see what happens, because it sounds like almost everyone was pissed off.
I spent the day in the Judge Advocates Office today. I had a blast. It is definitely something I think I want to look into now. The officers were a blast, but naturally I had more fun with the people my age, so spending thee day with an Airman First Class wasn't that bad. Nice boy too...hahaha.
What to do with myself, what to do.
I don't think I have anything else. I just felt like rambling, which seems to be what I do best here.
Oh. And I'm in some shit in the det. I failed my Pre-Calc class this semester. So that means I only completed 10 credit hours this semester. So that's a Form 16. And tack on another one for failing said class. And then I have to do something with a form and submitting an inquiry for some such. I believe that is just to make sure it isn't/won't be a habit. It worries me a bunch because I'm afraid that it came off that I didn't try, and I did. Just at that point in the semester (the latter half) I got lost hard core. So I didn't do homework, I didn't do well on tests. But hopefully it will be okay because my professor seemed to like me, and I'm planning on taking it again with her. I'm really frustrated and down about this. I fucked up again. It's so frustrating. I did it to myself, it's my fault. I have to admit blame, but it just sucks, you know? I've worked so hard, I'm so excited and motivated, and this one class shouldn't fuck me over, but I over-analyze everything. That's my job as a future officer, haha.
I'm afraid that I let my dad down. I feel like I can't tell him anything like that, for fear of him flipping out, and not trusting me, and not...whatever. I'm my own person, and he shouldn't matter, but his approval means everything to me, and he doesn't even know it. I think it's weird that I'm so close to my mom, and not close to my dad that much. I mean I am, I love him, and I'd do anything for him. We hang out, work on the cars, but it just isn't...I don't know what it is. Maybe it's just because naturally since I'm a girl, I was going to lean towards my mom, but growing up I was always with him, doing shit. I was the major tom-boy and always wanted to hang out with Daddy. Maybe I'm just exaggerating, or just have a ton of unresolved issues within myself, hahahahaha. That's an understatement.
Oh well. Life's looking up. I'm supposed to be in 3 different places tomorrow night, all on different sides of the valley. Great. I want to do them all too, that's the hard part. And none of these people know each other, or they do and they loathe and despise the other. We'll see how this goes. I never get to see any of these kids either. Ah! =O
And I got a new job. My background check went through so I can do training on Tuesday. I'm trying to decide if I'm going to just not show up to the MU on Tuesday, or if I'll call in and try to get cover. There really isn't enough people to get cover anyways, so either way it's useless. Hahaha.
Love from,
Kim