long time

[ecnaegnev]

it's been a long time. my life has changed a lot. im happy. well, not currently due to certain circumstances that i cant change, but deep down, im happy, and i do believe this is probably the first time i can honestly say that. so yes, im happy. all thanks to my fiance, James Brian O'Donnell. who i never would have met had i not known justin. so i really do believe that everything happens for a reason. i can sit down and write out a list of bad things, that always eventually lead to good things. like the day my Jimmy walked into the ale house to see me. my heart stopped when i met him, i still cant believe he was actually there to see ME! he is the most amazing beautiful sexy intelligent caring man i have EVER met. and hes all mine. this man is unconditionally in LOVE with me. he loves me. i see it in his eyes, i hear it in his voice, i feel it in his touch. that day after work i called him, and we met up and i followed him to his house. he was on house arrest so basically we just sat at his house and chilled everyday. that first night though, i put it on him pretty good, i definately got him beggin me for more. and i gave it to him. i've always fucked guys, but me and jimmy, we made love. all day every day. the passion is so strong. he loves me for me, i can be my stupid self around him & not worry what he thinks about me, cuz i know he loves me. & now hes in prison for VOP... he doesn't get released until summer 2010, but its okay. im okay. we're going to get married and were going to make it work. it has to cuz i dont want anything else. im okay with this, as long as were married and in love we'll be happy, and nothin can touch our love, were untouchable. so im just working. and talking to him. i couldnt ask for a better husband, im his queen and nothing will change that. life seems to always try & break me, but im stronger than ever, im unbreakable. so try me. as long as i got love, i got everything i need.

<3, Mrs. Heather D. O'Donnell

p.s. i really need 2 get off the opiates. thats the only thing i want to change in life. my addiction to those things!!