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I haven't updated for ages.
This is mainly because everytime I linger on the net more than 10 minutes doing something other than homework, I feel guilty, and I force myself to do something else.
It's one of those schemes I'm trying to follow up on in order to 'quit' internet-time-wasting-homework-negelecting habits.
And for your information, I am spending less time on LJ and PPT, but I am still not spending enough time on studying. **ACK** This is so hard!
I feel like giving up school altogether.
Everytime I get another midterm back or an assignment back, I end up hating myself for doing so terrible, and I just want to stop studying. **sigh**
I feel like I can never "get it" like some other people can.. or that I can't "measure up" to standards. I honestly want to quit. I am tired of seeing myself fail over and over again, and I am tired of my stupidity, and I don't have motivation anymore.
There's still 2 more years or more of schooling.. I can't make it that far, at least not with a 60% average or something. Maybe I should go to college instead.. maybe I should quit school for a while..
This is mainly because everytime I linger on the net more than 10 minutes doing something other than homework, I feel guilty, and I force myself to do something else.
It's one of those schemes I'm trying to follow up on in order to 'quit' internet-time-wasting-homework-negelecting habits.
And for your information, I am spending less time on LJ and PPT, but I am still not spending enough time on studying. **ACK** This is so hard!
I feel like giving up school altogether.
Everytime I get another midterm back or an assignment back, I end up hating myself for doing so terrible, and I just want to stop studying. **sigh**
I feel like I can never "get it" like some other people can.. or that I can't "measure up" to standards. I honestly want to quit. I am tired of seeing myself fail over and over again, and I am tired of my stupidity, and I don't have motivation anymore.
There's still 2 more years or more of schooling.. I can't make it that far, at least not with a 60% average or something. Maybe I should go to college instead.. maybe I should quit school for a while..