hey
I am so bored! today, I hafta...watch tv! i have 2 parties to go to this weekend and then 1 on the 29th. my dad wants to hang out with me but i said screw him. if he can only call once out of 4 fuckin years, screw him!! and the one day, was his and my mom's ex anniversary!! he's so selfish! I talk to him about everything! he's the only one I talk to bout stuff, whats gunna happen when i eventually lose him? I'll have no one! maybe God, but he doesn't respond to me. if he does it's through natalie. that doesn't help b/c she hates me. she's always with karlee now. I feel left out. thats why im always talkin bout adrienne b/c i want to make her jealous but i doubt she is. i miss hangin out with nat. she's never there for me anymore. she acts like she cares, but does she? im so alone in this world. with her, it's "karlee this, karlee that" im sick of it. im not sayin that she can't have any friends, i just wanna be her best friend again and we can hang out and stuff. but thats never gunna happen again. NEVER!! i know they say 'never say never' but, this time it's NEVER!! i can say it this time. i don't know if i should confront her with this or not. i don't want her to get pissed at me. it's not worth losing our friendship over again. ya know what, forget what i juss said. nothing i say matters.