Yeah, my mom likes to say that you haven't lived if you don't have regrets but that doesn't really help take the edge off the pain, now does it? *lol* But, I guess it is in the same vein of thought that if we didn't experience hardship and pain, how could we appreciate the good things in life?
There are times when it is really hard to accept that statement but it does make a point worth remembering... Even in our minds' darkest of times.
But since we can't be Timelords and go back into time and do things differently, it basically forces us (whether we want to or not) to focus on the present and what knowledge we now have to the situation at hand so as to make our future what we want of it...
That's all easy to say, of course, since I'm no longer in as deep a depression I used to be, but that's because I did just what I said; I ultimately had to pull myself out of that dark place and apply the lessons I had learned (through some very painful trial and error) to what I was doing at the present and since then I have been doing pretty well... I still make mistakes but I've learned to accept that I'm not perfect, I will never be perfect but making mistakes will not stop me from trying to live the life I want to. I know that if I did, that would end up being the biggest regret I could [ever] have.
In short, as long as we learn from the past's mistakes, there is always hope for a better future. I believe that because I spent way too many months in a dark place where I scoffed at such notions, and let me tell you, that shit was a waste of time that I will never get back. I will not be making the mistake of letting my cynicism rob me of my precious, precious time ever again (because for all I know, this could be the only life I have and I do not want to waste it).
*gets off of soapbox - now how the hell did I get up on there?? lol*
There are times when it is really hard to accept that statement but it does make a point worth remembering... Even in our minds' darkest of times.
But since we can't be Timelords and go back into time and do things differently, it basically forces us (whether we want to or not) to focus on the present and what knowledge we now have to the situation at hand so as to make our future what we want of it...
That's all easy to say, of course, since I'm no longer in as deep a depression I used to be, but that's because I did just what I said; I ultimately had to pull myself out of that dark place and apply the lessons I had learned (through some very painful trial and error) to what I was doing at the present and since then I have been doing pretty well... I still make mistakes but I've learned to accept that I'm not perfect, I will never be perfect but making mistakes will not stop me from trying to live the life I want to. I know that if I did, that would end up being the biggest regret I could [ever] have.
In short, as long as we learn from the past's mistakes, there is always hope for a better future. I believe that because I spent way too many months in a dark place where I scoffed at such notions, and let me tell you, that shit was a waste of time that I will never get back. I will not be making the mistake of letting my cynicism rob me of my precious, precious time ever again (because for all I know, this could be the only life I have and I do not want to waste it).
*gets off of soapbox - now how the hell did I get up on there?? lol*
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