What am i doing? Will you be my shuga momma/daddy?
The randomness of it all is sometimes alarming.....things just happen for no particular reason which may or may not alter your life forever. I think i would like a warning, at the very least an email from GOD/Supreme being of some sort...the jury is still out on that one. I've been thinking a lot lately about school and my career options after school. I've always wanted to be a vet, thats been the plan since day one. I'm just not so sure about it anymore...maybe i just wanted to do it because yes, i do love animals, but i think i just wanted to make my parents proud, have a job that people would admire/respect, and have money and job security. If i love animals i can rescue them and own them and love them and do everything in my power to make the world a better place for them, that i can do without being a vet. The other reasons arent that good either, yes they are practical, but are they following my heart. I wish my heart would stop speaking in riddles and just be slightly more direct. I'm still at that age when i am slighty naive and selfish in that i want to find something that makes me blissful happy even if they money isnt so good. Which, by the way, is ever so slighty stupid because in the end if i want to have horses/ranch/children and a good quality of life then i do need money, wish it wasnt that way but it is. I have a lot of run on sentences with very poor grammer.
Today i thought i found something that iw ould love to do and i would be good at, but several people i talked to shut it down. I was thinking about being an anatomy teacher for high school students. I think i would love it, but then again i'm not sure. I dontknow what i like, well its not really that, its just that i like everything a little. So, half of my more practical people say that i wouldnt make any money and wouldnt be able to support a family..etc.... The other half say that i am just giving up on being a vet because i'm getting lazy and i'm tired of school. The first half have a point, but the second have...well they do a little bit. I'm not giving up because its hard, and i dont want to think of it as giving up. I just dont think i would be happy in the end. And vet school is incredible competitive so if i dont have some sort of drive then there is no way i am going to do well in it, that is if i even get in. I just dont know if my heart is in it. I feel like i am rambling, which i guess is okay seeing as if you are reading this you are completely aware that i do ramble.
Going to see a good friend of mine is boston next month, actually going to see two good friends of mine. I'm really looking forward to having some time to clear my head and focus on my priorities...or maybe i just need to run around and act stupid for a while. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsy roll pop....one....two......three...(crunch)...i guess the world will never know. I hope she is as excited to see me as i am to see her, she seems like a ray of light in this black and white world. There are several people in my life who i considers just rays of sunshine on a cloudy day so to speak, but i never get to see them so i feel like i'm a bad person. Then when i do have a minute to call i dont because i feel so incredible awkward around people and i'm afraid iwont have anything to say.
guess that sums of the ramblings of this incoherant soul.
P.S...rest in peace sweet coo coo cachoo...you are the best hampster in the entire world and you will be greatly missed. Chris, just remember he is in heaven where the sunflower seeds grow on trees and the bed fluff falls from above. Not to mention he was a ladies hampster so you know he is pimping it now.
Today i thought i found something that iw ould love to do and i would be good at, but several people i talked to shut it down. I was thinking about being an anatomy teacher for high school students. I think i would love it, but then again i'm not sure. I dontknow what i like, well its not really that, its just that i like everything a little. So, half of my more practical people say that i wouldnt make any money and wouldnt be able to support a family..etc.... The other half say that i am just giving up on being a vet because i'm getting lazy and i'm tired of school. The first half have a point, but the second have...well they do a little bit. I'm not giving up because its hard, and i dont want to think of it as giving up. I just dont think i would be happy in the end. And vet school is incredible competitive so if i dont have some sort of drive then there is no way i am going to do well in it, that is if i even get in. I just dont know if my heart is in it. I feel like i am rambling, which i guess is okay seeing as if you are reading this you are completely aware that i do ramble.
Going to see a good friend of mine is boston next month, actually going to see two good friends of mine. I'm really looking forward to having some time to clear my head and focus on my priorities...or maybe i just need to run around and act stupid for a while. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsy roll pop....one....two......three...(crunch)...i guess the world will never know. I hope she is as excited to see me as i am to see her, she seems like a ray of light in this black and white world. There are several people in my life who i considers just rays of sunshine on a cloudy day so to speak, but i never get to see them so i feel like i'm a bad person. Then when i do have a minute to call i dont because i feel so incredible awkward around people and i'm afraid iwont have anything to say.
guess that sums of the ramblings of this incoherant soul.
P.S...rest in peace sweet coo coo cachoo...you are the best hampster in the entire world and you will be greatly missed. Chris, just remember he is in heaven where the sunflower seeds grow on trees and the bed fluff falls from above. Not to mention he was a ladies hampster so you know he is pimping it now.