I find it hard to concentrate...
Wow, an update. *gasps*. Dont' worry, it won't be long.
I had the strange desire to read over some of the diaries I kept prior to coming to college tonight... it took me from 7th grade through the beginning of my sophomore year of college. It was mind-blowing to read them, to see where I've come from over the past few years, and how I've changed as a person. I realized that I'd lost touch with the person I used to be.. and I shouldn't, because even if I'm glad to have changed in the ways that I have, I should never forget where I've come from, and what has shaped me to be who I am now.
It's funny... I can group the stages in my life by, "I was obsessed with --- for these few years." I's a special child.
So... that was good to do. It also made me want to run up a wall, and run off and be depressed. Memories are good to have, but they're also terrifying and can make you feel like a horrible person.. like now.
Wow, so much angst. No wonder I wanted to be removed from all that.
...other than that, life is going by. Work sucks, but it's work, so that's expected. I get to see Drew people on weekends, which makes my life all the better. Off to Vermont on Friday, then Belize for 10 days with my church. The adventures just don't stop. All this going on, and looking into the past... it's a 180-turn that makes my head spin.
Time to go breathe for a while.
I had the strange desire to read over some of the diaries I kept prior to coming to college tonight... it took me from 7th grade through the beginning of my sophomore year of college. It was mind-blowing to read them, to see where I've come from over the past few years, and how I've changed as a person. I realized that I'd lost touch with the person I used to be.. and I shouldn't, because even if I'm glad to have changed in the ways that I have, I should never forget where I've come from, and what has shaped me to be who I am now.
It's funny... I can group the stages in my life by, "I was obsessed with --- for these few years." I's a special child.
So... that was good to do. It also made me want to run up a wall, and run off and be depressed. Memories are good to have, but they're also terrifying and can make you feel like a horrible person.. like now.
Wow, so much angst. No wonder I wanted to be removed from all that.
...other than that, life is going by. Work sucks, but it's work, so that's expected. I get to see Drew people on weekends, which makes my life all the better. Off to Vermont on Friday, then Belize for 10 days with my church. The adventures just don't stop. All this going on, and looking into the past... it's a 180-turn that makes my head spin.
Time to go breathe for a while.