Ashley, thank you. Reading your words was almost like seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.
I had almost an epiphany myself when I was at the theatre for our usual Thursday night hookah last week. I went in with Ivan, who went upstairs right away cause they dropped a print (oops) and I stuck around in the lobby for a couple of minutes. I've been in there many times since I left, and had numerous snide comments made about my presence, but was left pretty much alone this time. There wasn't anyone to talk with, and I got bored after a very short while of sitting on the bench in the lobby. So I got up and left. I walked around the back of the building, the front of the mall, back and forth for about 30 minutes. I was honestly waiting for security to haul me off, but they didn't seem too concerned (big shock).
So at some point, Raul showed up and we sat down at Coffee Society. I sat with my back to the theatre, and I just felt.... pissed off. I couldn't figure out why. I sat there fuming, and it was just very strange. I came to the realization a couple days later that there was nothing at AMC for me anymore. It's exactly what you said about how what used to be there was gone. How I left that place is nothing close to what it is now. But instead of feeling pissed off like I was on Thursday, I was at peace with it. I accepted it, and I feel like AMC's dead weight can't hold me back anymore. As corny as it sounds, I feel free from what I left behind. Only took me six months. =)
And fire is definitely fun. But the building is pretty much burning down on it's own; no need for us to help it along.
Again, thank you. You've helped more than you can possibly know.
Ashley, thank you. Reading your words was almost like seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.
I had almost an epiphany myself when I was at the theatre for our usual Thursday night hookah last week. I went in with Ivan, who went upstairs right away cause they dropped a print (oops) and I stuck around in the lobby for a couple of minutes. I've been in there many times since I left, and had numerous snide comments made about my presence, but was left pretty much alone this time. There wasn't anyone to talk with, and I got bored after a very short while of sitting on the bench in the lobby. So I got up and left. I walked around the back of the building, the front of the mall, back and forth for about 30 minutes. I was honestly waiting for security to haul me off, but they didn't seem too concerned (big shock).
So at some point, Raul showed up and we sat down at Coffee Society. I sat with my back to the theatre, and I just felt.... pissed off. I couldn't figure out why. I sat there fuming, and it was just very strange. I came to the realization a couple days later that there was nothing at AMC for me anymore. It's exactly what you said about how what used to be there was gone. How I left that place is nothing close to what it is now. But instead of feeling pissed off like I was on Thursday, I was at peace with it. I accepted it, and I feel like AMC's dead weight can't hold me back anymore. As corny as it sounds, I feel free from what I left behind. Only took me six months. =)
And fire is definitely fun. But the building is pretty much burning down on it's own; no need for us to help it along.
Again, thank you. You've helped more than you can possibly know.
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