I've always wanted to
I've always wanted to be a gangster
I've always wanted to eat glass with you again
I've always wanted to play the piano
I've always wanted to be a lumberjack

I wish I had more friends
I wish I had more hands
I wish I had more money
I wish I had more time
I wish I had more chromosomes
I wish I had more time to finish this

yeah I never post on this thing. I should more.

if you hear voices in your head, but they are in different languages, and you can't understand them, does that mean you're even crazier? (or just stupid)

I guess that sums up how things are going for me lately.

The relaxation/drugged up mood is now replaced with constant ridiculous anxiety.
I am starting to eat solid foods now.
I met Placebo.
When I am at home I constantly hear noises that are the audio version of chinese water torture. I can hardly hold a thought.
I had some very strange dreams last night.

part of me in still on an island somewhere, most of me is on painkillers. this has been going on for a little while. feels good. always chill, always relaxed, zoning out.. and tolerance to drinks is wholly different. the crisp fall air feels good but my apartment is shady and cold. I wear lots of soft things and feel like I'm floating.

I am in love..
with a machine.
Humans are just too much trouble.

for these reasons:
I am tired of the cocksmoking in my house.
I need to find a new cheap bachelorette pad.
I read an article that strongly recommends "vaginal fisting."

Numbing throat lozenges are funn!!

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Spend more time surfing porn at work.

Get your resolution here

don't feel like writing much right now, but just wanted to say thanks to everyone for an awesome show on new years. I really enjoyed it, and it made me excited about the thought of playing more.

nosleepnosleepnosleepgrrrrrrrr.....
hangingbyathreadbrainmalfunctioninggggg....
as usual..
I should fill it with drinks %_% hmmmmm