Filtered to Con
I don't even know if you read this anymore, but it's the only way I have to possibly reach you. You're not here, and your phone says it's been disconnected. Where are you, Con? Are you even okay there?
I miss you. I miss you and I don't think it's fair that you left me here all alone. You should have told me, Con. You should have said you were going to leave. You should have given me something other than this horrible silence that is everywhere now. At least then I'd know. Everyone is dead and we didn't get all our chances to say goodbye to them. I wish every day that I'd got to say goodbye to the people who are gone now. I wish that you'd said goodbye to me.
I thought I meant something to you, Con. You spent so many years trying to protect me from everything horrible and awful but then you left and you never prepared me for that. You never told me that you'd be going away as well. I thought you'd be the one who was always there with me.
I feel so alone. You were the only one who could truly understand what it was like to lose everything. I wish you'd been strong enough to stay with me, and I wish as well that I'd been strong enough to protect you from the things you had to run away from.
I hope the sun is shining where you are, Con. I hope there's beauty. London is cold and grey and I can only hope that you're somewhere warmer, somewhere better.
I can see some beautiful yacht that you'd love floating in waters that are so clear you can see all the way to the white sand below and skies above the same bright blue. And you'd be there on the deck, just floating along and finally at peace.
Say 'hi' for me, Con. I miss you all so much.
I miss you. I miss you and I don't think it's fair that you left me here all alone. You should have told me, Con. You should have said you were going to leave. You should have given me something other than this horrible silence that is everywhere now. At least then I'd know. Everyone is dead and we didn't get all our chances to say goodbye to them. I wish every day that I'd got to say goodbye to the people who are gone now. I wish that you'd said goodbye to me.
I thought I meant something to you, Con. You spent so many years trying to protect me from everything horrible and awful but then you left and you never prepared me for that. You never told me that you'd be going away as well. I thought you'd be the one who was always there with me.
I feel so alone. You were the only one who could truly understand what it was like to lose everything. I wish you'd been strong enough to stay with me, and I wish as well that I'd been strong enough to protect you from the things you had to run away from.
I hope the sun is shining where you are, Con. I hope there's beauty. London is cold and grey and I can only hope that you're somewhere warmer, somewhere better.
I can see some beautiful yacht that you'd love floating in waters that are so clear you can see all the way to the white sand below and skies above the same bright blue. And you'd be there on the deck, just floating along and finally at peace.
Say 'hi' for me, Con. I miss you all so much.