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I feel weird... i don't get it. I should be all excited and in a good mood, but im not. Maybe im just tired and still recooping from being sick. My stepdad just got eye surgery done and is in some pain and can't see out of one of his eyes for rite now. My mom got her eyes diolated to get the tests done to get hur lasik... and she is whining more than ken (my stepdad) is and its really annoying. I got my hair cut today. I think it looks good. My mom was supposed to dye my hair todai, but her eyes are diolated and she"cant" or whatever. It makes me angry cuz ive been asking for her to do it earlier so that this whole last minute thing wouldnt happen but she didnt and now im getting it done tomorrow, last minute! So my hair will smell chemically at MB! JOY! Oh well that hairspray will prolly cover it up. The guys went paintballing todai, wish i could have gone, but i had to get my hair done and i dont need bruises for my dress. So i hope they had fun, if it actually happened. I'm bored i guess. I don't know i have this really weird feeling, like im sad or something, but i have no idea why. I don't know... sorry for bitching! Me and Andrew are going bak out, for some reason a lot of people feel its their thing to deal with or that this has something to do with them. Its not anyone elses decision or relationship or life! So i wish everyone would leave us alone about it and let it be. Janie thinks its a bad idea... she bitched me out about it the other day. I shouldnt care, but it bothers me. Ive been stressing way too much lately! I feel like i wanna cry rite now, prolly do to all this shit thats been gonig on. Overload much! I'm a big baby lol! My mom doesnt even understand things with me and Andrew and she tries to be supportive, but then she says things that she really shuldnt or jokes about it. It really pisses me off! Its not hur life or decision either and she has no room to talk w/ the stuff that goes no in hur own relationship. There are a lot of things i am trying to change about myself cuz i realized that i have picked up some traits that make me what i dont want to be. I want to be a better friend and girlfriend. The only problem is that it seems to be a better gf it will seem that i am not being a good friend to one person in particular... its tough when a close friend and bf have issues. AHH! I don't know. All i know is that tomorrow is MB and Im not going to worry about anything and Im just going to have fun! That's what everyone needs to do and if you decide not too... then stay the hell away from me! Sorry but I need this nite! I dont need any shit! I wish this fucking nauseated feeling would go away! I have had it all week.. prolly a virus or maybe just stress, more than likely! Yeah so anyways i guess I will take me leave now... lata
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