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Dum dum dummm I have a new WUiV song stuck in my head called "It's OK to Smile" Make sure u all check them out - they rawk!!! [[www.wokeupinvegas.com]] I went to their practice last night and listened to that song ^ like 386739637 times, but it was ok because it was really good even though it's not 100% done yet. I felt VIP with them for a few hours lol.
So on the way home Chris and I talked, he's such a sweetheart, and he basically told me I need to believe in myself and what other people say shouldn't matter. Well, I know it in my head, but it's harder to do than just knowing it. (did that make sense? I dunno?) I was telling him about the good old days - Passion - when I had agents and I had connections and I quit, I tend to quit everything I get into when it's not going my way... Passion, college, Hollister... Yea, there's a pattern here. He inspired me and made me feel SO good about myself, which I more than appreciated. Too bad I have a bf that I love so much or Chris would be a perfect guy, even though he is VERY focused on his music, I would be too if I were in his position. Maybe I'll try to find a band who wants a singer? Or better yet just put people together who can play and see where it goes ya know? Thanx Chris, honestly, you made me feel sooo good about myself last night - thank you.
So me and Eric are SO MUCH better because I can say, he's been making an honest attempt to open up to me and I've been holding back a little with the emotions so I don't make him feel toooo pressured into anything hahaha... I love that boy :o) ::sigh:: Last night I saw my old neighbors fiance's myspace anddd well, it had a pic of them getting engaged - so cuuute. To think, I used to want to marry Derek.. We were like 12 ok? It was cute then lol. But, it made me think about when we were all 12 and then I asked Nikki why Eric won't propose and she told me "You know you're gonna marry him." I wish I could say I did know.. I'm still waiting for that girl to come and take him away from me. Bleh.. I'm too negative - he loves me and I love him, end of story. I think?
So on the way home Chris and I talked, he's such a sweetheart, and he basically told me I need to believe in myself and what other people say shouldn't matter. Well, I know it in my head, but it's harder to do than just knowing it. (did that make sense? I dunno?) I was telling him about the good old days - Passion - when I had agents and I had connections and I quit, I tend to quit everything I get into when it's not going my way... Passion, college, Hollister... Yea, there's a pattern here. He inspired me and made me feel SO good about myself, which I more than appreciated. Too bad I have a bf that I love so much or Chris would be a perfect guy, even though he is VERY focused on his music, I would be too if I were in his position. Maybe I'll try to find a band who wants a singer? Or better yet just put people together who can play and see where it goes ya know? Thanx Chris, honestly, you made me feel sooo good about myself last night - thank you.
So me and Eric are SO MUCH better because I can say, he's been making an honest attempt to open up to me and I've been holding back a little with the emotions so I don't make him feel toooo pressured into anything hahaha... I love that boy :o) ::sigh:: Last night I saw my old neighbors fiance's myspace anddd well, it had a pic of them getting engaged - so cuuute. To think, I used to want to marry Derek.. We were like 12 ok? It was cute then lol. But, it made me think about when we were all 12 and then I asked Nikki why Eric won't propose and she told me "You know you're gonna marry him." I wish I could say I did know.. I'm still waiting for that girl to come and take him away from me. Bleh.. I'm too negative - he loves me and I love him, end of story. I think?