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I miss them, after one week. I could get up and walk to her if i knew where she was. Well, how to get there is more like it. The emotions that I get when they are gone are so unpredictable it is madening. While one second I could be fine and content, the next I will be irritable and pissed. I feel like I need to just yell, at someone, something, anything. I'm losing my mind, and they are the only ones that keep me sane. They hold me together, they make me want to keep going. Now that they have been gone for this week I feel like I could care less. Like I could just give up and waste away. I know I can't do that, I know they will be back verry soon. But a phone call would be nice, just a reminder of what I'm fighting for. I live for them, and when they are gone I have a verry hard time. I like having my friends around me, but I am always afraid that I'm going to say somthing stupid and uncalled for. Sara and Lillian are the two people in my life that if I lost, I would die. I don't know if I could keep going. And when they are gone it makes me feel like I'm moving in slow motion. I am tired and need to sleep, but I know I'm just going to end up staring at my celing. Well iI think I'm going to atleast try, maybe I will pass out at a reasonable hour.