OCT 7th
I'm so tired of pointless bull. It seems like that's all this whole town has.
We had a comp today. It was alright. We got second out of three. So we're not bad but we're def not good.
I was really looking forward to hanging out with friends afterwards, but things came up and they had to go home, and I had to send the remaining people home. I'm just tired of things falling apart. Even my car is falling apart.
I am making a lot of new friends, friends I could have made so long ago. People I wish I talked to forever ago.
So I'm going to church for the first time in forever tomorrow. I wish I never stopped. And I wish I had the time to go more often.
I wish I knew how to talk to you. Don't get me wrong, we do talk. But I don't think you know what I really want to say, and before everything changed you used to know what was on my mind before I did. I wish those times had never gone away. I can't forget how close we used to be. It's still there, I can feel it, and I know you can too. Other wise we wouldn't talk at all. I don't want you to forget who I am. And I don't want you to think of me as anything less than you did at the beginning of summer. Yeah, I've made mistakes in the past. But they're all mistakes I'll never have to make again. I just hope you'll understand this the next time we talk.
I know what I am
I know what I am not.
I just don't know what or who I need to be.
We had a comp today. It was alright. We got second out of three. So we're not bad but we're def not good.
I was really looking forward to hanging out with friends afterwards, but things came up and they had to go home, and I had to send the remaining people home. I'm just tired of things falling apart. Even my car is falling apart.
I am making a lot of new friends, friends I could have made so long ago. People I wish I talked to forever ago.
So I'm going to church for the first time in forever tomorrow. I wish I never stopped. And I wish I had the time to go more often.
I wish I knew how to talk to you. Don't get me wrong, we do talk. But I don't think you know what I really want to say, and before everything changed you used to know what was on my mind before I did. I wish those times had never gone away. I can't forget how close we used to be. It's still there, I can feel it, and I know you can too. Other wise we wouldn't talk at all. I don't want you to forget who I am. And I don't want you to think of me as anything less than you did at the beginning of summer. Yeah, I've made mistakes in the past. But they're all mistakes I'll never have to make again. I just hope you'll understand this the next time we talk.
I know what I am
I know what I am not.
I just don't know what or who I need to be.