the thrist for victory
I have just made a decision. If I go through with what I have decided to do, My life is going to change forever. I wont be the same anymore. No, don't think negatively. Think postively. I'm tired of being an average person. I do a lot of things half heartedly. That leads to my frustration. Frustration of "Why the fuck can't I get good at this?" I'm tired of it. tired of being just average. I'm determined to get what i want. I want satisfaction. I want achievement. I want to be good. Fuck good, I want to be great. I want to achieve goals. Fuck all this want shit, i'm gonna fucking do it. I am going to be successful. I wont just be average anymore! I'll be great. I feel after I go through with this, I'll be a better person. I'm not doing this for anyone. I'm doing this for myself. because i'm tired. i want results and if you want something done, you gotta do it yourself. I've been thinking for a while now, analyzing myself. analyzing the way i am, what i'm doing and where i'm going. if i continue to go down this current path, it will lead to a life of just being average. not doing anything exciting. I'm going to get better. for myself. but wait, not just for myself, i want to make my mother proud. she's done so much for me, this is the only way i can pay her back. to make her even more proud, to be able to give her the things she couldnt get herself, like the corvett she always wanted to drive. i'm going to do this. there's no stopping me, no chains holding me down. I'm gone. I've made my choice. and this time, im going to try my fucking damned hardest to go through with it. it wont be easy, but in the end, it'll have been all worth it.
done.
done.