caught up
so lastnight....i was home til quarter after 7, and my mum asks me when im going to actually start acting like i live here....err what??? I'm the only one that does shit around the house. I do the dishes everyday, and I do laundry and vaccum...FUCK that bullshit...and lately all shes been doing is bitching about how my sister leaves when she doesnt have the baby, and she never does anything around the house...so maybe she should get off my case, and get on hers....b/c thats fucking bullshit...fuck her for saying that. i feel bad cuz i missed my dads dinner on sunday. argh. i was sleeping at travis's and i woke up at like 2...i didn't figure it was a big deal. what do they care whether im there or not?
i have major issues right now. lastnight we played cards with bobby n travis. bobby taught us how to play spades. I never wanted to learn how to play that game...still don't lol....mainly cuz I still don't really understand it. I don't know when to throw a high or low down...or how the fuck they read their partner...whatever lol. bobby is crazy with cards. but yeah, he was in prison for a long time, so I suppose that explains it. I saw his record lastnight..2 fuckin pages of charges lol. crazE. so after gettin our ass beat by bobby in spades, we went out n just drove around for a while, went to parnell but it was too cold to run around and play. I was on A comin back from the kettles, and travis turns around and kisses me....im speechless about it. I don't know what he has in his head...he knows i love tim, and that i'm stuck on him...but he kissed me. I honestly don't know what to think. I don't want to get caught up in something that blows up in my face, where I'd hurt two people, and myself. Sometimes I just wish he was gay, and it wouldn't matter if he touched me or not. We went to walmart lastnight...I didn't want to cuz I told them we'd get kicked out....and we did. We went to heidi's house and watched house of a thousand corpses. travis never saw it, so he got a kick out of it. I got home around 3:30 and didn't fall asleep til 4. I'm so fucking beat. I've been sleeping in til 12-1 during the day, and been going to bed arouind 3-4am. I have to stop doing that. I start work ina few weeks...and I can't be out late that much anymore. Tomorrow i'll get a break cuz heidi works so that'll be til 9. Travis has tomrrow off. John emailed me and asked about my car and asked how I've been doin. I miss hangin out with both wankstas.
Tim called me at like 7 this morning. I love when he calls outta the blue. I feel like I need him so bad right now. I'm scared I'll do something I'll regret if he doesn't get here sooon. I miss him so so so so much. I just watn him here to cuddle with and kiss and be with me. Thats all I want right now........he told me to call him when I woke up...I'm not doing that anymore. Every time i do, his mum picks up and says hes not there...plus she never sounds too happy when i call, and i hate being a burdon on ppl or a pain in the ass, so im not calling there no more.
well its 1 already, and I haven't done shit around the house yet, so I better get up and do something
i have major issues right now. lastnight we played cards with bobby n travis. bobby taught us how to play spades. I never wanted to learn how to play that game...still don't lol....mainly cuz I still don't really understand it. I don't know when to throw a high or low down...or how the fuck they read their partner...whatever lol. bobby is crazy with cards. but yeah, he was in prison for a long time, so I suppose that explains it. I saw his record lastnight..2 fuckin pages of charges lol. crazE. so after gettin our ass beat by bobby in spades, we went out n just drove around for a while, went to parnell but it was too cold to run around and play. I was on A comin back from the kettles, and travis turns around and kisses me....im speechless about it. I don't know what he has in his head...he knows i love tim, and that i'm stuck on him...but he kissed me. I honestly don't know what to think. I don't want to get caught up in something that blows up in my face, where I'd hurt two people, and myself. Sometimes I just wish he was gay, and it wouldn't matter if he touched me or not. We went to walmart lastnight...I didn't want to cuz I told them we'd get kicked out....and we did. We went to heidi's house and watched house of a thousand corpses. travis never saw it, so he got a kick out of it. I got home around 3:30 and didn't fall asleep til 4. I'm so fucking beat. I've been sleeping in til 12-1 during the day, and been going to bed arouind 3-4am. I have to stop doing that. I start work ina few weeks...and I can't be out late that much anymore. Tomorrow i'll get a break cuz heidi works so that'll be til 9. Travis has tomrrow off. John emailed me and asked about my car and asked how I've been doin. I miss hangin out with both wankstas.
Tim called me at like 7 this morning. I love when he calls outta the blue. I feel like I need him so bad right now. I'm scared I'll do something I'll regret if he doesn't get here sooon. I miss him so so so so much. I just watn him here to cuddle with and kiss and be with me. Thats all I want right now........he told me to call him when I woke up...I'm not doing that anymore. Every time i do, his mum picks up and says hes not there...plus she never sounds too happy when i call, and i hate being a burdon on ppl or a pain in the ass, so im not calling there no more.
well its 1 already, and I haven't done shit around the house yet, so I better get up and do something