...not understanding...
i love when he calls me in tha morning. i dun mind him wakin me up neithers. Im happy his voice is the first voice i getta hear. Im glad he called me this mornin cuz he called around 10 an i was still dead asleep n if he hadn't called, i would've prolly slept til noon er 1 lol. i love him. hes sooo soo cute with his li'l ways.
hmph. he still thinks i don't believe him tho. i don't know how to make him understand. i do believe him, but you always have to make room for something bad to happen. i don't like being caught unawares. he said he'd do anything to prove it to me, an all i wanted to say was come back here. i dun want it to be different. i liked it when he was here...non of that stupid drama bullshit would have happened if jason didn't come up here. tim wouldnta been out walking downtown with a glass of alcohol or went to some stupid party with the idiots. i wish things could go back to how they were, and were supposta stay. we were lookin at apartments all over the place and they're all so freakin expensive. i'd love to live in cedarburg cuz its sucha quiet peaceful, pretty town...but waaayy too expensive...n thats the problem with anywhere big. rent is $700 n up. sheboygan county prolly has the cheapest apartments. plymouth u can get rent for $290-500$ for rent. im royaly fucked anyways. im not going to skool...dunno if i ever will. now, i must pay 400$ to the hospital, my car insurance....which is gonna go sky high now cuz of that stupid accident. im going to have to get my own health insurance...and i wanna save up, so i get a job here...to what? quit in the next 2-3 months. i won't have a steady pay, an i'll have to quit to be fucked again until i find another job. i don't like being unsure when you make a big commitment to somn. i dunno. maybe im being stubborn? i dun understand why it hasta be so far away. the ppl that hung around here when he was here....don't anymore. i saw derriks name in the paper for underage's hahaha...but he isn't in plymouth anymore. brandon is in bootcamp, tabol is a li'l street rat still. the only kid that is a problem is matt...only b/c heidi taunts him. i don't want to have to drive an hour or two to hang out with friends....n then have to drive an hour or two back home. thats crazy. specially now since gas is going sky high and going to make a new high record. eh...i've been watching the news like crazy lately...don't ask me why...its not that i care whats going on in the world...but i watch it anyways. i wish i could convince tim. i don't understand why he doesn't wanna come back here. a half an hour drive to hang out with ppl...is LONG enough fer me. argh...believe me, once i tell my parents i wanna move out...they'll freak, so god knows what their reaction would be if i told them it was going to be a couple hours away. eeehhhh. i just don't understand.
hmph. he still thinks i don't believe him tho. i don't know how to make him understand. i do believe him, but you always have to make room for something bad to happen. i don't like being caught unawares. he said he'd do anything to prove it to me, an all i wanted to say was come back here. i dun want it to be different. i liked it when he was here...non of that stupid drama bullshit would have happened if jason didn't come up here. tim wouldnta been out walking downtown with a glass of alcohol or went to some stupid party with the idiots. i wish things could go back to how they were, and were supposta stay. we were lookin at apartments all over the place and they're all so freakin expensive. i'd love to live in cedarburg cuz its sucha quiet peaceful, pretty town...but waaayy too expensive...n thats the problem with anywhere big. rent is $700 n up. sheboygan county prolly has the cheapest apartments. plymouth u can get rent for $290-500$ for rent. im royaly fucked anyways. im not going to skool...dunno if i ever will. now, i must pay 400$ to the hospital, my car insurance....which is gonna go sky high now cuz of that stupid accident. im going to have to get my own health insurance...and i wanna save up, so i get a job here...to what? quit in the next 2-3 months. i won't have a steady pay, an i'll have to quit to be fucked again until i find another job. i don't like being unsure when you make a big commitment to somn. i dunno. maybe im being stubborn? i dun understand why it hasta be so far away. the ppl that hung around here when he was here....don't anymore. i saw derriks name in the paper for underage's hahaha...but he isn't in plymouth anymore. brandon is in bootcamp, tabol is a li'l street rat still. the only kid that is a problem is matt...only b/c heidi taunts him. i don't want to have to drive an hour or two to hang out with friends....n then have to drive an hour or two back home. thats crazy. specially now since gas is going sky high and going to make a new high record. eh...i've been watching the news like crazy lately...don't ask me why...its not that i care whats going on in the world...but i watch it anyways. i wish i could convince tim. i don't understand why he doesn't wanna come back here. a half an hour drive to hang out with ppl...is LONG enough fer me. argh...believe me, once i tell my parents i wanna move out...they'll freak, so god knows what their reaction would be if i told them it was going to be a couple hours away. eeehhhh. i just don't understand.