*yawn*
I had the urge to write about my feelings .. XD; how un-manly of me.
As some of you could guess, I haven't been myself lately, right?Well, THAT is none of your business.I just want to..generally address the topic of betrayal.
Not like this has any relevence about NOW.. but.. quite a few years back..yeah..maybe.
*clear throat*
Sometimes, things happen that are really shitty. Things you could see coming, but never wanted to think about. Because they tear you apart inside, they take you to this bleak place you don't think you can ever get away from. Sometimes people, even people you think you've given everything you can to, are just too selfish to think about you in return.
It makes you hate them, and hate yourself. But most of all, I think it makes you hate life when someone betrays you. It makes you hate the fabric of an existence that would do this to you. You wonder, is there more I should have done? Did I miss something along the way? And maybe you did, maybe you didn't.
But it all comes down to this, and it's the hardest part. People betray us with their own decisions. It was nothing you made them do, or anyone else did. There are always choices to life, and sometimes it's people we love who are stupid and selfish enough to make the shittiest ones you can imagine.
When you lose someone you considered your best friend, someone you loved utterly, whether platonically or otherwise, it tears you in half. And then, whenever you patch back together, there's a hole in your chest. Sure, maybe you move on in a few years, maybe you get a new person to spend your time with. But there's always going to be a hole.
Basically, nothing anyone can say can make it any less shitty and awful than it is. Ever. And it never stops hurting. That's the truth.
Betraying someone's trust, their love, is the absolute lowest thing a human being can do to another.
And if you do it, you deserve whatever you get.
*tip-hat*
As some of you could guess, I haven't been myself lately, right?Well, THAT is none of your business.I just want to..generally address the topic of betrayal.
Not like this has any relevence about NOW.. but.. quite a few years back..yeah..maybe.
*clear throat*
Sometimes, things happen that are really shitty. Things you could see coming, but never wanted to think about. Because they tear you apart inside, they take you to this bleak place you don't think you can ever get away from. Sometimes people, even people you think you've given everything you can to, are just too selfish to think about you in return.
It makes you hate them, and hate yourself. But most of all, I think it makes you hate life when someone betrays you. It makes you hate the fabric of an existence that would do this to you. You wonder, is there more I should have done? Did I miss something along the way? And maybe you did, maybe you didn't.
But it all comes down to this, and it's the hardest part. People betray us with their own decisions. It was nothing you made them do, or anyone else did. There are always choices to life, and sometimes it's people we love who are stupid and selfish enough to make the shittiest ones you can imagine.
When you lose someone you considered your best friend, someone you loved utterly, whether platonically or otherwise, it tears you in half. And then, whenever you patch back together, there's a hole in your chest. Sure, maybe you move on in a few years, maybe you get a new person to spend your time with. But there's always going to be a hole.
Basically, nothing anyone can say can make it any less shitty and awful than it is. Ever. And it never stops hurting. That's the truth.
Betraying someone's trust, their love, is the absolute lowest thing a human being can do to another.
And if you do it, you deserve whatever you get.
*tip-hat*