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[eccentric_ox]

Yesterday was... interesting, in both good and bad ways. The good was that it got me to meet new people and say things that I probably never would have said otherwise.

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Ran, do you mind coming to Xanadu for our talk? I feel like going there, unless you have a better idea. I don't mind either way.

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[number1gal]

Can we meet at my place?

[eccentric_ox]

Sure. I'll be right over.

[number1gal]

thanks!

[eccentric_ox]

*arrives and stands in front of her place, looking around*

[number1gal]

*opens door for him* hey^_^

[eccentric_ox]

*smiles* Hey. How are you feeling?

[number1gal]

fine, I just let myself rest but it's driving myself insane.

[eccentric_ox]

I see. *nods* Are you ready to go?

[number1gal]

Go?

[eccentric_ox]

*puts a hand to the back of his neck* I'm sorry. I mean, are you ready to talk? It probably won't be very exciting.

[number1gal]

Listening!

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[eccentric_ox]

*walks in with hands in pockets*

I will tell you what I can, because I can't tell you everything. It's not because I don't want to, but trust me when I say it's for your safety. *pauses before contintuing* I've already told you that my family is strict. I could get in trouble simply for being here, but I'm not always afraid of taking risks. We couldn't even make friends with people from the "outside." Bad things would happen to them. That's why I don't want to get you involved. I don't want you to go through that. *looks at her with a serious expression*

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[number1gal]

*walks forward and takes his hands* outside? *very serious as well*

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[eccentric_ox]

*nods* Yeah, meaning anyone who is not part of the Sohma clan.

Many of my cousins have experienced loss, abandonment, abuse, from their parents, or... someone else. I am one of the few lucky ones. I still have both of my parents, and they do not treat me badly. For that, I am very grateful. But all things considered, I do often fear that they will suddenly have a change of heart, and abandon me or beat me. I've seen it happen one too many times in my life, in my family. I also fear that if not them, someone else who is important to me will stop caring and leave, simply because it's what they were around. It's what we all were around growing up. Unfortunately, as you know, I have a woman I love who is not here, and my parents are also home, too. There are also other cousins who I wish were here, because they are very close to me. Even though I know they are much safer there than they are here, I still wish that they were here.

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[number1gal]

Why would your pairents turn on you?

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[eccentric_ox]

*shrugs* I've seen it happen before. I've seen a family that seemed so perfect, and then one day, it turned into a nightmare. It happened to fast, so suddenly. And then, her parents just left. Just walked out on her, like she was a piece of shit. I watched them yell at her, tell her she was bad, when they were the ones who were bad. But I was just a kid. There was nothing I could do. No one listens to kids. *looks really sad*