here in NY (state... not city)
eric lent me his old laptop (the one i gave him some years ago), so that i won't be bored in the hotel room i'm sharing with my dad. except i can't get the wifi to work, so i'm in the "business centre" here at the crowne plaza (i keep wanting to call it the crown royal)...
this morning when my dad went to tim hortons (there's one here in the states!), i watched this movie on tv. it was called unaccompanied minors or something. i kinda enjoyed it... as horrible as those preteen comedy movies are. perhaps i was that bored.
went to eric's game last night. he didn't play because he's redshirted, but the team is rather amazing. i got a free tshirt, because i was one of the first 500 people to come to the game.
i think later on we're going to go to this place called the 'bird kingdom', and maybe a little family gambling at the casino on the american side (eric just turned 21, so he can now gamble and drink legally in the states)
It's been a weird time here... i really don't know how much longer my dad is going to live. He drinks a lot. Not to get drunk... but just to remain stable. I'm trying not to make it a big deal, but i just don't want to see him drink himself to death. I really don't want to be his keeper, or take responsibility for his mistakes, but it's so hard to see him not realize how bad it's become. He's gotten fat, he has a lot of prescription pills that probably don't interact well with all of the alcohol he drinks... and yeah, he walks really slow. He talks to himself, and doesn't remember a lot. I had to keep reanswering questions he had asked hours previously.
i don't want him to move out here. i'd have to see him more, and in all honesty, I'd have to ship his body back to BC so he could be buried in the family plot, and I don't want to have to deal with that. Seriously. Tick tock tick tock tick tock...
my mom told me to try to enjoy this time with him, and remind him of the good times we had... i can see how this would be a good thing, as this could be the last time i see him (alive). weird.
eric, dad (and perhaps luuk) and i are going to go to the outlet malls later when eric's out of school. should be fun. but i really really want to go to marineland or the aquarium or bird kingdom or something random like that. i just want to have some photos of us being happy and doing something normal families do. not that we've ever been a normal family. i just want a couple happy memories from this trip.
this morning when my dad went to tim hortons (there's one here in the states!), i watched this movie on tv. it was called unaccompanied minors or something. i kinda enjoyed it... as horrible as those preteen comedy movies are. perhaps i was that bored.
went to eric's game last night. he didn't play because he's redshirted, but the team is rather amazing. i got a free tshirt, because i was one of the first 500 people to come to the game.
i think later on we're going to go to this place called the 'bird kingdom', and maybe a little family gambling at the casino on the american side (eric just turned 21, so he can now gamble and drink legally in the states)
It's been a weird time here... i really don't know how much longer my dad is going to live. He drinks a lot. Not to get drunk... but just to remain stable. I'm trying not to make it a big deal, but i just don't want to see him drink himself to death. I really don't want to be his keeper, or take responsibility for his mistakes, but it's so hard to see him not realize how bad it's become. He's gotten fat, he has a lot of prescription pills that probably don't interact well with all of the alcohol he drinks... and yeah, he walks really slow. He talks to himself, and doesn't remember a lot. I had to keep reanswering questions he had asked hours previously.
i don't want him to move out here. i'd have to see him more, and in all honesty, I'd have to ship his body back to BC so he could be buried in the family plot, and I don't want to have to deal with that. Seriously. Tick tock tick tock tick tock...
my mom told me to try to enjoy this time with him, and remind him of the good times we had... i can see how this would be a good thing, as this could be the last time i see him (alive). weird.
eric, dad (and perhaps luuk) and i are going to go to the outlet malls later when eric's out of school. should be fun. but i really really want to go to marineland or the aquarium or bird kingdom or something random like that. i just want to have some photos of us being happy and doing something normal families do. not that we've ever been a normal family. i just want a couple happy memories from this trip.