today is a bit confusing to me...
i wake up thinking about what this girl told me, it kinda threw me off but oh well. i dont understand girls i swear. i think maybe kathy was right when she siad i try to hard. i dont know why i do but i guess thats the case. i think i ought to stop trying as hard but what is a boy to do when he wants something so bad and can almost reach it but never can seem to grab hold of it? i dont know how this can happen to me all the time and i really dont mind in the log run but i think it gets to me sometimes (thats to be expected) i dont know what im gonna do but i am happy that life is settling down with the whole issue of now having an apt. its a relief. the only thing is that my mother comes back tomorrow i think and she has not the slightest clue im moving out. oh well, well talk about it. what am i to do? about both of these issues? i dont know but advice is truly welcome. xoxo joe.