BAH! I hate summer.
BUGLE! STOP BEING DEPRESSED! SERIOUSLY MAN! IT'S NOT GOOD FOR YOU, SO STOP! SERIOUSLY! WHAT'S TO BE DEPRESSED ABOUT ANYWAY? THERE'S NO GOOD REASON FOR IT! JUST SHAPE UP MAN!
...I think... I think the summer does something that makes me depressed. Seriously. Maybe something in the air? Or something. But it's usually in the summer where I just get... depressed for no good reason. Sigh. I've heard of something like seasonal depression, maybe I have that? Never thought of that before, but the lousy trend seems indicitive that I do...
So, um, if I get depressed, uh.... I dunno. I guess... try to cheer me up? Or is that being selfish? Or attention whorish? Meh... I dunno.
I AM fighting this depression, like I said, but sometimes (a lot lately, actually) it's harder to fight and I lose (like right now). You know, this would explain a lot of the reason why I hate summer vacation... Meh. I need to find someway to distract myself.
What's making it ESPECIALLY difficult this year is the lack of a best friend, since I've disowned Mist in that position. Summers used to be full of us calling one or the other when we got really bored and needed someone to talk to. I do not have the ability to do this anymore, and it sucks... I suppose I COULD call him, but it wouldn't be as heartfelt... Meh. Hopefully my "be more social" ventures will put an end to some of this depression. If not... well, I guess the next two months are going to suck -_-
Maybe I should take Guin up on his offer to play Rose Online... I've been kind of hesitant because of FlyFF, though. While I'm getting sick of it and haven't played it since tuesday... I don't want to just abandon it. It's been useful for me to experience. I can't really explain why, but it's definitely been useful. Also, I don't want to abandon it because I don't want to abandon Chibi (not that he's played it since Tuesday either). Sigh... I think I'll wait a bit longer for RoseOnline and wee what happens with FlyFF. And if nothing happens... I'll try Rose, I guess. Shrug.
Summer sucks.
Edit: There's this thing called REVERSE Seasonal Affective Disorder, and it looks like I have that. Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) is more or less people in the winter being depressed for no reason. RSAD is the same only in the summer and is much rarer. After searching Wikipedia and a few other sites... looks like I may have it. So I'ma see a doctor about it. GOOD IDEA, NO?!? Maybe this will help. I really hope so.
...I think... I think the summer does something that makes me depressed. Seriously. Maybe something in the air? Or something. But it's usually in the summer where I just get... depressed for no good reason. Sigh. I've heard of something like seasonal depression, maybe I have that? Never thought of that before, but the lousy trend seems indicitive that I do...
So, um, if I get depressed, uh.... I dunno. I guess... try to cheer me up? Or is that being selfish? Or attention whorish? Meh... I dunno.
I AM fighting this depression, like I said, but sometimes (a lot lately, actually) it's harder to fight and I lose (like right now). You know, this would explain a lot of the reason why I hate summer vacation... Meh. I need to find someway to distract myself.
What's making it ESPECIALLY difficult this year is the lack of a best friend, since I've disowned Mist in that position. Summers used to be full of us calling one or the other when we got really bored and needed someone to talk to. I do not have the ability to do this anymore, and it sucks... I suppose I COULD call him, but it wouldn't be as heartfelt... Meh. Hopefully my "be more social" ventures will put an end to some of this depression. If not... well, I guess the next two months are going to suck -_-
Maybe I should take Guin up on his offer to play Rose Online... I've been kind of hesitant because of FlyFF, though. While I'm getting sick of it and haven't played it since tuesday... I don't want to just abandon it. It's been useful for me to experience. I can't really explain why, but it's definitely been useful. Also, I don't want to abandon it because I don't want to abandon Chibi (not that he's played it since Tuesday either). Sigh... I think I'll wait a bit longer for RoseOnline and wee what happens with FlyFF. And if nothing happens... I'll try Rose, I guess. Shrug.
Summer sucks.
Edit: There's this thing called REVERSE Seasonal Affective Disorder, and it looks like I have that. Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) is more or less people in the winter being depressed for no reason. RSAD is the same only in the summer and is much rarer. After searching Wikipedia and a few other sites... looks like I may have it. So I'ma see a doctor about it. GOOD IDEA, NO?!? Maybe this will help. I really hope so.