fuck this
stupid stupid stupid eb. to think something might actually go her way. she should've known from the start that was a ridiculous idea.
i wish i hadn't cut my hair.
i wish i was going to france tomorrow.
i wish i was good enough for someone.
but wishing is useless, it just seems like a way of somehow denying reality, or tricking yourself into thinking that something completely outrageous and impossible might actually happen.
jesus christ i feel like the stupidest person alive. wow wow wow. i give myself all this fucking false hope and just set myself up for a bigger fall. fan-fucking-tastic.
someone shoot me please. i had the fucking worst day.
i would say more, but i don't really know what to say and how to say it. it comes down to simply: i feel like complete shit, and i feel completely stupid.
post script: a big thanks to mitch. without him, i would be feeling a lot dumber right now...if that is possible.
i wish i hadn't cut my hair.
i wish i was going to france tomorrow.
i wish i was good enough for someone.
but wishing is useless, it just seems like a way of somehow denying reality, or tricking yourself into thinking that something completely outrageous and impossible might actually happen.
jesus christ i feel like the stupidest person alive. wow wow wow. i give myself all this fucking false hope and just set myself up for a bigger fall. fan-fucking-tastic.
someone shoot me please. i had the fucking worst day.
i would say more, but i don't really know what to say and how to say it. it comes down to simply: i feel like complete shit, and i feel completely stupid.
post script: a big thanks to mitch. without him, i would be feeling a lot dumber right now...if that is possible.